In response (happier journal entry above)
-{Quoted by "anonymous" as a reply to my last journal entry}-
You know what? You're not perfect. Maybe not everyone WANTS to talk to eachother. Did you ever think of that? Did you ever think that maybe people are happy with how things worked out? Are YOU friends with everyone, just because someone told you to be?
It seems more like you're concerned with getting attention by trying to fix everyone elses problems than you are with trying to fix them for their own well being. You don't even know these people very well and none of this affects you in any way. It doesn't even really matter to you, you just have nothing better in your life to cause drama about.
And just for the record, you're using the words 'angered' and 'cause' completely out of context. Next time you decide to try and dictate others' moves, please at least do so with the grammar above a ninth grade level.
K... "whoeveryouare": For starters, I really don't care how "amazing" my Grammar is cause you clearly understood what I meant, and that's all I cared about. Besides, I hardly see how two minor grammar errors make a large deal on what was said, seeing as how there've been simple errors, just like that, found in the Wall Street Journal before.
That little bit of anger aside, "whoeveryouare": Trust me on this here: I don't know why I hafta tell this to everybody, but I know I'm not perfect. If I thought I was perfect, I wouldn't feel the need to respond to this, because it wouldn't affect me in any way. If I thought I was perfect, I wouldn't be so worried about a lousy G note in some fucking song I've done for Express for not just this year, but also last year, because perfect people would hit it without fail. And if I thought I was perfect, I wouldn't be trying to make all my friends, and even an ex-GIRLFRIEND happy, or at least semi-content, because I wouldn't need them. After all, perfect people don't need friendships when they have themselves. I'm not concerned with getting attention, and I'm not trying to fix any problems. If you'll notice, I said "things are never going to be the same between eachother, in fact, they probably won't be the same between me after I do this" (not a direct quote, I'm pulling this out of memory here). What I am trying to do though, is have everyone... at least be civil to one another. I don't know what's going on at your end; "whoeveryouare", but what I do know is that when I made that post in the first place, it sounded like Amy was still taking it hard. Quite frankly that means something to me. I don't know how things are now, I just got back and am only here for the day, but I remember from reading Journals, things still weren't going so well. I realize (now... at least) that you need time to heal everything. I was just trying to help the process along, cause it didn't look like anyone else was going to do anything.
Anyway, as it is "whoeveryouare", you probably think I'm either A)A babbling idiot who knows not of what he's talking about, B)A stuck up asshole who doesn't deserve your respect, or; I hope at least C) Someone who's truthfully trying to make a difference, and that you're willing to at least consider his words cause who knows, maybe under some freaky circumstance, they might make at least a little bit of sense. I'll reiterate this: I know very little of what the situation is. The only thing I know is that people are hurting, people who are my friends. Take what you want from this post, but that still does mean something to me, and I'm gonna fucking do something about it rather than idly sit by and watch them feel like shit. Got it BITCH?!?!? Fuck, I'm gonna shutup before I make things worse. A birthday post will be coming up right away, it'll have happiness, glee, and excitement, and no more of this shit. I've tried, it's up to you guys: ALL of you guys, to do what you want, cause if I could do anything else, I probably wouldn't even be in Moose Jaw to do it anymore anyway. So bring on the Birthday post: lats.
Edit: I made a couple adjustments. I fixed a few spelling and GrammAr errors (:P you Chantal... :D), and changed the name at the top to... well, nothing, cause I was told I was mistaken as to whom it was, and PS: I said "bitch" not to send it towards a specific gender. I dunno if it's a guy or a girl who made that reply, "bitch" is just a word I chose to use in anger. (:P Chantal again) Also, After re-reading all this I realized I missed something.
In "whoeveryouare" 's post, he/she said "It doesn't even really matter to you, you just have nothing better in your life to cause drama about." I know I'm just egging something on that I really shouldn't be here, but: who gives you the right to say it doesn't matter to me? If it didn't matter to me, why would I have made a big deal about it, trying to help everyone in a way that I saw might possibly work. Apparantly it didn't, but at least I fucking tried. And for the record: I have alot to cause Drama about, if I really horribly wanted to. I could "cause drama" about how I wish I was more included in my Express cast. I could "cause drama" about how I miss home, and how little I get to be here and how badly I wish I could just live in Moose Jaw, see all my friends and family daily, and not have to have a ginormous weight on my shoulders about how things might change while I'm gone. I could "cause drama" about how badly I seem to think I sound on Stage sometimes, and how that's really the only future I've got right now is performance, since my Marks aren't quite good enough to make a University Degree in most things. I could "cause drama" about how I'm 18 now, and barely feel like an adult cause I'm still so worried about alot of stuff, and not completely self-sufficient cause I was never given the chance to. I could "cause drama" about alot of things, but I choose not to, just like I wasn't meaning to "cause" any "drama" about this, I was trying to help it STOP. Quite frankly, "whoeveryouare", I think you've caused enough drama for the both of us. But I'm done egging this on. You want to reply? Be my guest. I hope you don't expect me to yell back, but I hope you don't expect me to crumble either cause no matter what you say I'm doing, I know that I'm trying to help others, and if you're too stuck up to believe that I might still have a heart for people even though I'm now a "heartless performer", then you can rip that stick out of your ass, dig a hole, put it in, and pat it like the bitch that you are. Deal? I'm done for good now, or until I read another reply. Later.
You know what? You're not perfect. Maybe not everyone WANTS to talk to eachother. Did you ever think of that? Did you ever think that maybe people are happy with how things worked out? Are YOU friends with everyone, just because someone told you to be?
It seems more like you're concerned with getting attention by trying to fix everyone elses problems than you are with trying to fix them for their own well being. You don't even know these people very well and none of this affects you in any way. It doesn't even really matter to you, you just have nothing better in your life to cause drama about.
And just for the record, you're using the words 'angered' and 'cause' completely out of context. Next time you decide to try and dictate others' moves, please at least do so with the grammar above a ninth grade level.
K... "whoeveryouare": For starters, I really don't care how "amazing" my Grammar is cause you clearly understood what I meant, and that's all I cared about. Besides, I hardly see how two minor grammar errors make a large deal on what was said, seeing as how there've been simple errors, just like that, found in the Wall Street Journal before.
That little bit of anger aside, "whoeveryouare": Trust me on this here: I don't know why I hafta tell this to everybody, but I know I'm not perfect. If I thought I was perfect, I wouldn't feel the need to respond to this, because it wouldn't affect me in any way. If I thought I was perfect, I wouldn't be so worried about a lousy G note in some fucking song I've done for Express for not just this year, but also last year, because perfect people would hit it without fail. And if I thought I was perfect, I wouldn't be trying to make all my friends, and even an ex-GIRLFRIEND happy, or at least semi-content, because I wouldn't need them. After all, perfect people don't need friendships when they have themselves. I'm not concerned with getting attention, and I'm not trying to fix any problems. If you'll notice, I said "things are never going to be the same between eachother, in fact, they probably won't be the same between me after I do this" (not a direct quote, I'm pulling this out of memory here). What I am trying to do though, is have everyone... at least be civil to one another. I don't know what's going on at your end; "whoeveryouare", but what I do know is that when I made that post in the first place, it sounded like Amy was still taking it hard. Quite frankly that means something to me. I don't know how things are now, I just got back and am only here for the day, but I remember from reading Journals, things still weren't going so well. I realize (now... at least) that you need time to heal everything. I was just trying to help the process along, cause it didn't look like anyone else was going to do anything.
Anyway, as it is "whoeveryouare", you probably think I'm either A)A babbling idiot who knows not of what he's talking about, B)A stuck up asshole who doesn't deserve your respect, or; I hope at least C) Someone who's truthfully trying to make a difference, and that you're willing to at least consider his words cause who knows, maybe under some freaky circumstance, they might make at least a little bit of sense. I'll reiterate this: I know very little of what the situation is. The only thing I know is that people are hurting, people who are my friends. Take what you want from this post, but that still does mean something to me, and I'm gonna fucking do something about it rather than idly sit by and watch them feel like shit. Got it BITCH?!?!? Fuck, I'm gonna shutup before I make things worse. A birthday post will be coming up right away, it'll have happiness, glee, and excitement, and no more of this shit. I've tried, it's up to you guys: ALL of you guys, to do what you want, cause if I could do anything else, I probably wouldn't even be in Moose Jaw to do it anymore anyway. So bring on the Birthday post: lats.
Edit: I made a couple adjustments. I fixed a few spelling and GrammAr errors (:P you Chantal... :D), and changed the name at the top to... well, nothing, cause I was told I was mistaken as to whom it was, and PS: I said "bitch" not to send it towards a specific gender. I dunno if it's a guy or a girl who made that reply, "bitch" is just a word I chose to use in anger. (:P Chantal again) Also, After re-reading all this I realized I missed something.
In "whoeveryouare" 's post, he/she said "It doesn't even really matter to you, you just have nothing better in your life to cause drama about." I know I'm just egging something on that I really shouldn't be here, but: who gives you the right to say it doesn't matter to me? If it didn't matter to me, why would I have made a big deal about it, trying to help everyone in a way that I saw might possibly work. Apparantly it didn't, but at least I fucking tried. And for the record: I have alot to cause Drama about, if I really horribly wanted to. I could "cause drama" about how I wish I was more included in my Express cast. I could "cause drama" about how I miss home, and how little I get to be here and how badly I wish I could just live in Moose Jaw, see all my friends and family daily, and not have to have a ginormous weight on my shoulders about how things might change while I'm gone. I could "cause drama" about how badly I seem to think I sound on Stage sometimes, and how that's really the only future I've got right now is performance, since my Marks aren't quite good enough to make a University Degree in most things. I could "cause drama" about how I'm 18 now, and barely feel like an adult cause I'm still so worried about alot of stuff, and not completely self-sufficient cause I was never given the chance to. I could "cause drama" about alot of things, but I choose not to, just like I wasn't meaning to "cause" any "drama" about this, I was trying to help it STOP. Quite frankly, "whoeveryouare", I think you've caused enough drama for the both of us. But I'm done egging this on. You want to reply? Be my guest. I hope you don't expect me to yell back, but I hope you don't expect me to crumble either cause no matter what you say I'm doing, I know that I'm trying to help others, and if you're too stuck up to believe that I might still have a heart for people even though I'm now a "heartless performer", then you can rip that stick out of your ass, dig a hole, put it in, and pat it like the bitch that you are. Deal? I'm done for good now, or until I read another reply. Later.