Rollercoaster House
So yea, if you read Alex's journal, you know what's up. He scared Cassie. She was ready to be there for him, to see him through with that wonderfully big heart of hers, and he starts getting beligerent. I don't know if I trust him anymore. There's always the possibility that he's a lot more drunk than he lets on, and when Cassie's ready to be a good friend, he could just up and do something he'll regret. That's twice he hurt her.
I keep thinking, "I wish things would be normal," but if that were so, none of us would be any wiser. This is just the kind of shit I put myself into life-lesson mode for. I know if I hadn't taken Cassie for granted, things might be different. But things are the way they are, and our jobs as members of society is to learn from such situations and act accordingly. It will open our eyes even more. It just depends on what our eyes are opening to-- love or hate?
Even after all that Brad drama, we somehow managed to go to JR's and try to have a good time. I think our restlessness was cured by the perfect mixture of alcohol and acquaintences that JR's offers. Hell, even I was being sociable. Eric even got me a free coke.
I'm working hard to get over my being pathetic thing. I know when school starts, I'm going to buck up a little more. It's just the various factors weakening me here and there. Lack of a day-to-day schedule, this "house shit" as Eddie puts it, which, for me, is keeping myself out of Cassie's face all the time. I think I'm doing better on being away from her, if I just look at it as more to appreciate when we are together.
I bitched a little bit (okay, I threw a fit) about how people are always over and I never have time alone with Cassie, but that was just me being a big baby. When Cassie and I will be alone when we are alone, simple as that. No use in forcing such things. My goal for the next while, among with getting my money situation resolved and generally being nicer to my friends, is to stop being a control freak. I think we all know I like to say what goes. I'm sorry I'm such a hardass, guys. I will honestly try to just "let it be" as a great man once sang.
That's my story and I'm stuck with it.
I keep thinking, "I wish things would be normal," but if that were so, none of us would be any wiser. This is just the kind of shit I put myself into life-lesson mode for. I know if I hadn't taken Cassie for granted, things might be different. But things are the way they are, and our jobs as members of society is to learn from such situations and act accordingly. It will open our eyes even more. It just depends on what our eyes are opening to-- love or hate?
Even after all that Brad drama, we somehow managed to go to JR's and try to have a good time. I think our restlessness was cured by the perfect mixture of alcohol and acquaintences that JR's offers. Hell, even I was being sociable. Eric even got me a free coke.
I'm working hard to get over my being pathetic thing. I know when school starts, I'm going to buck up a little more. It's just the various factors weakening me here and there. Lack of a day-to-day schedule, this "house shit" as Eddie puts it, which, for me, is keeping myself out of Cassie's face all the time. I think I'm doing better on being away from her, if I just look at it as more to appreciate when we are together.
I bitched a little bit (okay, I threw a fit) about how people are always over and I never have time alone with Cassie, but that was just me being a big baby. When Cassie and I will be alone when we are alone, simple as that. No use in forcing such things. My goal for the next while, among with getting my money situation resolved and generally being nicer to my friends, is to stop being a control freak. I think we all know I like to say what goes. I'm sorry I'm such a hardass, guys. I will honestly try to just "let it be" as a great man once sang.
That's my story and I'm stuck with it.