Sep 18, 2004 13:43
welp. it didnt happen. he didnt show. fuck me. i guess i could look at the brighter side of this and say at least i wasnt like rejected or something cuz he wasnt even there to deny me, but its just the let down that is disappointing. i decided to be bold and drive myself to the opportunity and take fate into my own hands, but fate i guess didnt get the memo. what else is new. maybe its a sign that i should just drop it. its just not gonna happen. what am i holding on to ne way? im so pathetic its not even funny. i guess its cuz i have nothing else to feed off of cuz nothing like this ever happens. so if i ever get a taste of it, it ends up being so watered down so i can let it last as long as possible. man. i need to get a grip.
well other than that, the night wasnt too bad. it ended up being more of a ucsb reunion more than ne thing. kinda weird, kinda cool. jonah and shabana and i knew how to rock it, so that was fun. it was crazy how many people lost a shitload of weight. interesting....i wonder if that should be suggestive of ne thing....hmmm...jk. i didnt realize i knew as many people at school until last night. it was crazy. everyone knew everyone there. too bad im freakin exhausted now cuz i had to work at 8 in camarillo. blahhh. nap time in 20 min.
alright well thats it for now. dont know whats going on tonight really. just know that brooke is gonna call after she gets off of work at like 5 and adam said hes gonna call too. no real plans though. i dont know what i feel like doing really, but either way, if im w/ my buds, then im happy. :)
hope everyone enjoys their weekend and hit me up if ur ever in the sb area after tomorrow!