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i just replied to an email concerning an internship. i really wanna score it. like REAL bad. im just nervous that
a . my schedule (like schoolwise) is gonna be mega complcated to fit in a job type thingy.
b . im not qualified enough.
c . i wont get reply whatsoever.
all in all i just want it. bad. it seems like itd be a good experience. the drive is a bit of a bitch, but i think itll be worth it. we'll just see. ps. my resume or nonexistent resume sucks butt.
so i think im going up to sb tonight to try and take fate into my own hands. im not sure if it will be a huge disappointment or not, but i figure its an opportunity and if i just let it slip by me then ill never know. i think it will answer a lot of questions i have been asking all summer. and thats been a long time since my summer has consisted of like 3 months give or take. then maybe ill stop wasting my time or maybe even start something new in my life. dont know yet. im a bit sketched over it too considering i have work in camarillo at the club tomorrow morning at 8. bitch. if its a good night then ill be somewhat late. well actually ill probably be late either way. im just hoping stuff actually works out for me FOR ONCE. it never seems to. ive been waiting for forever and i havent caught one break once. unless heartbreak counts, then i have PLENTY of that. no good. i just dont know what to do ne more cuz it seems that nothing i do or try proves to be successful. im a just a big bowl of failure. and confusion. but who knows? maybe things r looking up for me this coming year. maybe ill start this year off w/ a big bang. maybe itll be my breaking ground. its tough and unfair to leave it all up to this one night, and im most def not cuz then i would a failure either way. i just think tonight will just give me a peek or even a glimpse. but then again what do i know ne way?
wow i just kinda argued with myself in that last paragraph. how weird. i guess im weird. whatevs.
my brother gave me a pic of him triple fisting at one of his shows. its one of my new favorite pictures. ever. its going up on my wall. dammnit im going to miss his stinking guts when i leave for good. :(
sun im living in sb for keeps. mon is ayla and alli's potluck/housebreaking/bbq party THANG. im tooootalllllly stoked. after that- school will finally start on thurs. well, sorta. i dont have ne classes scheduled thurs so ill probably be doing what im doing now.
alright so thats whats on my mind right now. end of transmission.
a . my schedule (like schoolwise) is gonna be mega complcated to fit in a job type thingy.
b . im not qualified enough.
c . i wont get reply whatsoever.
all in all i just want it. bad. it seems like itd be a good experience. the drive is a bit of a bitch, but i think itll be worth it. we'll just see. ps. my resume or nonexistent resume sucks butt.
so i think im going up to sb tonight to try and take fate into my own hands. im not sure if it will be a huge disappointment or not, but i figure its an opportunity and if i just let it slip by me then ill never know. i think it will answer a lot of questions i have been asking all summer. and thats been a long time since my summer has consisted of like 3 months give or take. then maybe ill stop wasting my time or maybe even start something new in my life. dont know yet. im a bit sketched over it too considering i have work in camarillo at the club tomorrow morning at 8. bitch. if its a good night then ill be somewhat late. well actually ill probably be late either way. im just hoping stuff actually works out for me FOR ONCE. it never seems to. ive been waiting for forever and i havent caught one break once. unless heartbreak counts, then i have PLENTY of that. no good. i just dont know what to do ne more cuz it seems that nothing i do or try proves to be successful. im a just a big bowl of failure. and confusion. but who knows? maybe things r looking up for me this coming year. maybe ill start this year off w/ a big bang. maybe itll be my breaking ground. its tough and unfair to leave it all up to this one night, and im most def not cuz then i would a failure either way. i just think tonight will just give me a peek or even a glimpse. but then again what do i know ne way?
wow i just kinda argued with myself in that last paragraph. how weird. i guess im weird. whatevs.
my brother gave me a pic of him triple fisting at one of his shows. its one of my new favorite pictures. ever. its going up on my wall. dammnit im going to miss his stinking guts when i leave for good. :(
sun im living in sb for keeps. mon is ayla and alli's potluck/housebreaking/bbq party THANG. im tooootalllllly stoked. after that- school will finally start on thurs. well, sorta. i dont have ne classes scheduled thurs so ill probably be doing what im doing now.
alright so thats whats on my mind right now. end of transmission.