pissed
i'm trying to calm down....and not focus on what is upsetting me but.....well i'm obviously having issues doing this or i wouldn't be writing here.....i'm writing here to provide myself with some sort of release...some studies support the idea that writing, the simple act of writing things down be it reasons you might be upset or things you want to accomplish can be empowering...enough so to make it so you can concentrate, can accomplish what you need to accomplish or at the very least might feel somewhat more relaxed following the conversation at the very least.....while i'm prone to anxiety issues and am doubtful that writing it down is going to make life better i am willing to try and thus am here.......
work sucks.....it doesn't always suck, but this week has been a mass of suckiness....and what kills me is that no matter how nice i try to be i still get bit in the ass......( not in a good way either)
i just want people to own up to their mistakes......own up to what they are responsible for....you know i go to work and do a number of things i don't like doing...however it is what i am paid for so why is it that other people find that so difficult? work isn't suppose to be fun....it can be....but it doesn't have to be......it would be nice but it doesn't generally happen like that.......i can't name a job that i have had that i have enjoyed every single day i was there or that i didn't have to do something i didn't like but guess what? that is the definition of a job....you get paid to do things that you don't neccessarily want to do, if you are lucky you find a job where you are less unhappy with your job then others......all i have to say is that in four months that promotion i have been promised better surface of i am finding another position that has closer to regular hours and makes me less well anxious and pissed? and that doesn't involve calls at eleven at night so you can bitch because i followed procedure.......
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
work sucks.....it doesn't always suck, but this week has been a mass of suckiness....and what kills me is that no matter how nice i try to be i still get bit in the ass......( not in a good way either)
i just want people to own up to their mistakes......own up to what they are responsible for....you know i go to work and do a number of things i don't like doing...however it is what i am paid for so why is it that other people find that so difficult? work isn't suppose to be fun....it can be....but it doesn't have to be......it would be nice but it doesn't generally happen like that.......i can't name a job that i have had that i have enjoyed every single day i was there or that i didn't have to do something i didn't like but guess what? that is the definition of a job....you get paid to do things that you don't neccessarily want to do, if you are lucky you find a job where you are less unhappy with your job then others......all i have to say is that in four months that promotion i have been promised better surface of i am finding another position that has closer to regular hours and makes me less well anxious and pissed? and that doesn't involve calls at eleven at night so you can bitch because i followed procedure.......
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!