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[laiuydfoiu]

after years of searching
i found myself even more lost than I was before.

when taking your medication makes you sick and lazy,
and not taking it makes you feel dead,
what do you do?

my thoughts are so disorganized.
i can't even write two pages on Ginsberg.
i can't sleep in.
i don't sleep, i lay and fight panic.
dreams are now nightmares.
I don't even know what it is i'm scared of,
but it's a struggle to do much at all.