FEAR, IT CONSUMES ME
Aluu allihopa
Small adjustments to the layout
Am hoping these silly faces will detract a little from all the seriousness hanging over my writings like a cloud. I don't know why I write in such lengthy form
with so many words, with such detail. I think it is because I feel too much, and am cursed with the ability to express it
When you wait, and wait... and expect too much, you often wind up disappointed. When you make sacrifices for something that doesn't go exactly to plan, you regret
I think its best not to make sacrifices for something that is not guaranteed because that is something called a "risk". And I am afraid of taking risks; I am afraid of losing
I bet that a little down the line, maybe once I've left for university
I will remember this weekend and regret. Regret that I lied (big time) to my mom+everyone and missed out on a Family Holiday
to stay here for such a stupid reason
But I can't help myself. I am still only a stupid little girl with not enough maturity to fill an eggcup; its strange how you can be old enough to do so many things and yet still unable to make the most crucial decisions for yourself
