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i am really dense...
i just realized what it was that i did.
pretty much it involves him finding someone else because he said he was looking for a girlfriend and i kind of gave him the emotionally unavailable crap and so that could have been misunderstood and now he is going to **** around....
ok ...
god i am so confused.
this is like chess ...what the hell did i do?
well i....don't care? maybe i do. maybe i feel a little bit like an idiot...because i pretty much told him that it was ok to date other people because i wasn't serious to begin with...which is not really QUITE what i wanted to say...but hell it came out that way...
ok ok....gah...well there really is no way to untangle this mess so i might as well just go with it..if he does do what i think he is going to do...i might be a little hurt and i might not ever talk to him again if he does decide that he still wants to talk to me...
even though i might have done the same...
i totally fucked up.
i just realized what it was that i did.
pretty much it involves him finding someone else because he said he was looking for a girlfriend and i kind of gave him the emotionally unavailable crap and so that could have been misunderstood and now he is going to **** around....
ok ...
god i am so confused.
this is like chess ...what the hell did i do?
well i....don't care? maybe i do. maybe i feel a little bit like an idiot...because i pretty much told him that it was ok to date other people because i wasn't serious to begin with...which is not really QUITE what i wanted to say...but hell it came out that way...
ok ok....gah...well there really is no way to untangle this mess so i might as well just go with it..if he does do what i think he is going to do...i might be a little hurt and i might not ever talk to him again if he does decide that he still wants to talk to me...
even though i might have done the same...
i totally fucked up.