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i feel a little funny today....apart from feeling a little stuffy...
nothing can be more embarrasing than what happened yesterday. nothing.
but it's ok. because i wasn't sure if i was interested in anything that was going on anyways...boredom settled in a long time ago so i was sort of in the mood to do something different and go party with some friends...however, this was not possible because wherever i was going i didn't really want to take him...
i like dancing by myself.
so yea, i did sort of behave like a jackass but it only got worse when i pulled out the honesty and he almost ran out screaming. yes yes. why did i do that? i have an assortment of reasons for why i did what i did. embarrasing, it was. however, had i not done that...i wouldn't ever have known when to say what i had to say...it might have come up at an even more inappropriate time.
my behavior could also be explained in that i was not showing interest and i didn't want to see him anymore so i did everything i did on purpose for the sake of scaring him away.
i can't really explain what happened. but it didn't go the way i thought it would have.
what did end up happening was a long conversation on akwardness and then in the end i realized that i pretty much left everything up to him...
but i tried to make it clear that i didn't care whether he calls anymore or not...but i guess that could have been misunderstood...
anyways this entire thing made me really confused. i really made a fool of myself yesterday and i plan to avoid him and not anwser his calls ever again. it's what i always do, and i think it has worked pretty nicely for me so far...
nothing can be more embarrasing than what happened yesterday. nothing.
but it's ok. because i wasn't sure if i was interested in anything that was going on anyways...boredom settled in a long time ago so i was sort of in the mood to do something different and go party with some friends...however, this was not possible because wherever i was going i didn't really want to take him...
i like dancing by myself.
so yea, i did sort of behave like a jackass but it only got worse when i pulled out the honesty and he almost ran out screaming. yes yes. why did i do that? i have an assortment of reasons for why i did what i did. embarrasing, it was. however, had i not done that...i wouldn't ever have known when to say what i had to say...it might have come up at an even more inappropriate time.
my behavior could also be explained in that i was not showing interest and i didn't want to see him anymore so i did everything i did on purpose for the sake of scaring him away.
i can't really explain what happened. but it didn't go the way i thought it would have.
what did end up happening was a long conversation on akwardness and then in the end i realized that i pretty much left everything up to him...
but i tried to make it clear that i didn't care whether he calls anymore or not...but i guess that could have been misunderstood...
anyways this entire thing made me really confused. i really made a fool of myself yesterday and i plan to avoid him and not anwser his calls ever again. it's what i always do, and i think it has worked pretty nicely for me so far...