"You can't force chemistry, and being in a relationship with someone who is trying to learn to love you out of guilt is awful. No one owes you anything just because you tried hard enough ( Read more... )

 happy holidays everyone ( Read more... )

 I don't regret entering VFS
I don't regret anything anymore.

It's all in the past.  I'm not saying I wouldn't do things differently in the past, but one of my qualities is that I tend to try to fix things once I've made a mistake.  I'm more open about talking to people, even if sometimes the selection can be random, it always works out.

I'm spending ( Read more... )

 With my new phone since I got back from Disneyland, it's been fun times trying to get everyone's number.  Sometimes I get random texts and have to do some asking or investigating haha.

But VFS is more than I ever thought it would be.  Already we seem like a family, and when I almost cried a few days ago in class, I had one of the girls ask me what ( Read more... )

 to the dress...

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every girl dreams about their wedding someday.

But all I can think about is that at mine, there will be an empty seat where my grandma would sit,
and she would've been the happiest to be there...

It's easier to pretend that nothing's changed.

 Watching the youtube clip of the fire, GLOBAL news covering it....last year was so chaotic.
My head still isn't on straight, and the fact's just kicking in.

"Holy shit, I could've died in that fire."
"Holy shit, my mom could've died."
"...my sister"
"...my family's friend"
"......my dog"

We were all there.
We're so lucky, but at the same time, we're not.

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 I finally dyed my hair back to black [after it having faded over the years LOL] and tried on my extensions!

it's finally kicking in that I'm graduating this Thursday.  A bit of panic has set in, but also a sort of calm.  Everything's working out, and going without a hitch.  I know I can ace my English provincial, get A's in all my classes, and put ( Read more... )

 The days are getting closer and closer to the end ( Read more... )

 OUCH times 1!  That was an experience haha!
Kyleigh and I went yesterday morning at the crack of dawn [10:00 am] to get new piercings.  For me, this was the first piercing since my lobes which I got when I was 7 HAHAHA.  Kyleigh was getting her industrial done, and I got my first cartilage EEEE <3

My mom gave permission before she left for Korea ( Read more... )

 so my mom told me that I was a fretful baby HAHA because she was packing for Korea while I was watching the first Rugrats movie.  I jokingly asked if I was anything like Dill [crying constantly and never sleeping].  
She just looked at me and said:
"Me, your father, and grandma and grandpa used to take turns taking care of you."

HELL YEAH I was a ( Read more... )