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so... i started my new job at Discount Tire Co.... and its soooooo much more fun! not as much work, lots better comany, and just better all around. i get to go to my soccer games, and get my hw done... well, i ususally don't, but thats not b/c of work, its just b/c i do other things, like hang out, and work on cars, and other things. so lifes going ok in that subject
but my dad and i have been fighting alot... well, not really fighting, just him getting pissed off at me, and me not knowing why... it sucks, and puts me in a really bad mood.for a while, i was really depressed (if you guys couldn't tell). i'm still trying to figure some of that stuff out... and i'm just getting more confused.
i don't think i'm making beth happy anymore. she just doesn't seem to be happy with me anymore. i do love her, and i know i put her in a bad mood when i'm depressed, and it upsets her that she can't make it better... but no one can... really, its just me and my dad don't always get along, and some times really get a long great. and i know i'm miss spelling words and shit horribly, but i really don't care. i really wish she would be honest with me more. i can usually tell when she's upset, and she still doesn't always tell me, and then she gets upset b/c she thinks she's being a bitch (no, i'm not calling her one b/c i really don't think she is one!) i love her, and she knows i do, and i try to understand why she doesn't tell me, but after 14 months, i wish she would. anyway, enough of me rambling on... i'ma go call her, she left in a bad mood/upset with me b/c i didn't really pay a lot of attention to her at my mom's b-day, i tried, but i was just having a lot of fun with kyle, willis, and puttz.
i'm sorry beth, i was just having fun, i didn't mean to ignore you, and i'm sorry you were upset with me, but i do wish you would tell me, i can usually tell when you are pissed off at me/ upset with me, yet you still deny it. i do love you, and i want to be with you, i just wish you would be more honest with me, and your not a bitch, i just want you to be more honest with me. it'll make me more happy that you are being honest with me, and i'll be able to help, or atleast understand. if nothing else, i would atleast like to know or understand why you are upset with me, and know that you are upset with me.
but my dad and i have been fighting alot... well, not really fighting, just him getting pissed off at me, and me not knowing why... it sucks, and puts me in a really bad mood.for a while, i was really depressed (if you guys couldn't tell). i'm still trying to figure some of that stuff out... and i'm just getting more confused.
i don't think i'm making beth happy anymore. she just doesn't seem to be happy with me anymore. i do love her, and i know i put her in a bad mood when i'm depressed, and it upsets her that she can't make it better... but no one can... really, its just me and my dad don't always get along, and some times really get a long great. and i know i'm miss spelling words and shit horribly, but i really don't care. i really wish she would be honest with me more. i can usually tell when she's upset, and she still doesn't always tell me, and then she gets upset b/c she thinks she's being a bitch (no, i'm not calling her one b/c i really don't think she is one!) i love her, and she knows i do, and i try to understand why she doesn't tell me, but after 14 months, i wish she would. anyway, enough of me rambling on... i'ma go call her, she left in a bad mood/upset with me b/c i didn't really pay a lot of attention to her at my mom's b-day, i tried, but i was just having a lot of fun with kyle, willis, and puttz.
i'm sorry beth, i was just having fun, i didn't mean to ignore you, and i'm sorry you were upset with me, but i do wish you would tell me, i can usually tell when you are pissed off at me/ upset with me, yet you still deny it. i do love you, and i want to be with you, i just wish you would be more honest with me, and your not a bitch, i just want you to be more honest with me. it'll make me more happy that you are being honest with me, and i'll be able to help, or atleast understand. if nothing else, i would atleast like to know or understand why you are upset with me, and know that you are upset with me.