❧ thirteenth: spirals

[laenavesse]

I've talked with my parents (again) about how miserable I am about law school and they told me that if I really want to pursue something different, that if I really want to quit law school, I can and they will continue to support me for whatever I do next. If I want to go into teaching, they would help with the tuition or whatever if necessary. If

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[chibi_plum]

I know I have told you this before so I apologize if I sound like a broken record, but you're absolutely right about being normal. Everything you fear and everything you feel... It's all normal. Finding ourselves is always the hardest part of growing up. We have so many expectations early on that living up to them becomes a burden when we realize that what we wanted or thought we wanted before isn't necessarily what we want now. And so we question everything and talk ourselves into more indecision. I've found that thinking about what I want out of life never truly brings me to anything certain, but trying it or experiencing new things seems to bring me closer to any answers. I never thought I would be in the profession I'm in today. Didn't even know it existed. And when I look back at how I got here, I realize I didn't have a plan for anything. I just so happened to get here by chance. And I'm damn happy I did. You don't have to know what you really want. How could you possibly know when you've primarily learned about it in a classroom or through TV. Don't be afraid to go out there and experience the world outside of a textbook. The fact that you have a family to support you no matter what means you have that freedom. And the fact that you are agonizing over their approval and your own approval proves you care about your future enough that you won't take it all for granted. The fear is so very normal. Sometimes the best thing to do is to move along until we find what we're looking for.

I also wanted to say that I've been working on my own mental health and happiness for a year now and I've found that acupuncture for anxiety and even depression has helped me immensely. I'm terrified of needles, but pushed myself through the terror for the sake of trying something new and natural. It has helped me to feel more balanced and more confident. And has really helped with migraines. Just figured I'd put it out there as a suggestion because I think it's important to remember that simply trying new things can help you discover answers you didnt even think to ask.