So, I have one thing done as far as the wedding goes. I got a dress today. Now we just need to do EVERYTHING else...

I'll post a picture if you really want to see it...

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( Depression is merely anger without enthusiasm )

Crying at night
Hold me tight
No one is there
I feel so alone

My broken heart
Is killing me
I've lost all sense
Of feeling happy

Sad heart
Blue eyes
A lot of people asking
"What's wrong?"

My insides are bleeding
My fleet is retreating
I'm dying inside
Alone

Red tears
No more fears
The biggest has made it's mark
I will always be
Alone.

And not the good kind. Liars who go after you and then decide that you're not good enough and then go after your cousin, are pussies. Liars who lie about sex like fucking high school fucktards, are pussies. Liars who won't even talk about how they lied except for in between two tables full of people at work, are pussies. I told him he was a ( Read more... )

Three years ago, I went home to discover that someone very dear to me had died. Someone who has since been the inspiration for two of my three tattoos. Nicole's body died, but her "spirit" still remains in those who were close to her. I miss her so much, but however creative I get with words, I will never be able to describe the pain I have felt ( Read more... )

I cannot deal with having nightmares (at my age) any longer. I cannot deal with all of the sleepless nights that I've gone through because I was just too afraid that the nightmare would continue. I cannot deal with not going to see my parents because I am afraid of them all because of these STUPID FUCKING NIGHTMARES ( Read more... )

And by signs, I mean all of the stupid shit around town that reminds me of John. There's a fucking cell phone commercial about text messaging and one of the texts is "Lyndsay thinks John is cute." Yeah, I fucking do, leave me alone. Then I'll be driving and see Ashton all over the fucking place. Ashton is John's last name. He doesn't like me ( Read more... )

I cannot take this anymore.

I was fired today. Not really fired, but when I got to work I noticed I wasn't on the schedule for next week, so I decided to go to the office and give a manager my doctor's note and figure out what the deal was. Apparently, since I was sick on Friday and called in, they assumed that I was quitting and that I wouldn't show up today especially not ( Read more... )