Re-evaluation
People wonder why I am not more outgoing and social. Here is my reason. I am constantly being let down be those people I thought were friends, why should I want more? There are friends that you know will never betray you and are as close as blood. They are the people who you know would sacrifice themselves for you and you for them. Then there are the other kinds of friends. The kind that masquerade as the first but will stab you in the back just to watch you bleed. I have two friends of the first kind and one of the third. The signs were there. She has hurt me greatly before and I rue the day I ever forgave her. I am a selfish person. Those that love me know and thankfully forgive me this fault. But I am not a cruel or spiteful by nature. It takes a lot to work me into a good mad. So you can appreciate the significance of my saying I am furious. I am hurt. Nothing will fix this. I hope she knows that. I hope she knew that before she did what she did. She lost me as a friend. Tre, I hope he was worth it.