Technology sucks!
Okay so Michelle has been taking the quizes that everyone has on their journals. Here's my problem. I have no idea how to put them on my page. HELP! For everyones information, my Muse is Urania, the Muse of astronomy and the heavens. She is reserved and introspective. Sounds like me. I took the cat quiz and shocker I am a "Couch Potato Cat". I don't think I like the implications of that one but I can't deny it.
So Michelle's birthday falls on next Monday this year. I will be going out to dinner that night at Carrabba's on 44th Street if anyone would like to come. I am not much of a party planner and so, while I am dying to see you guys, I really don't know how to get a party together and as such, probably won't have one:(
I am very tired today. I couldn't sleep last night. When you start playing the "what if" game you only succeed in making yourself nuts. I still am very hurt and would have liked to know about Tre and Chris. I am however unable to hold onto the good mad I had going on. Regrets aren't fun but I have only myself to blame for them. I should have made amends with him along time ago. Fear kept me from doing that. I am tired of being afraid of everything. I am afraid that people won't care what I have to say and will ignore me. I am afraid of giving others my heart lest they hurt or break it. I want to be fully active in this life but am afraid to do so.
Thus, my New Year's resolution: I will endevor to fully participate in life. I will give my heart others and pray they don't break it but not fear they will. I will be a better friend. I will realize that I make it easy for people to ignore me by not calling, visiting or keeping up with them. I will realize it takes two people to destroy a relationship and not cast blame. I will always love those I have lost, be it through death or time, but learn to cherish the memories and not be paralyzed by them. I will learn to think of future and plan for it instead if living only in the now. I will try my best to remember improtant things, be they birthdays, names, dates, or presents. I will tell my friends I love them and let them know I don't ever want to lose them. Finally, I will start a diary to chronicle my day and anaylze my life. In short I am sick and tired of being left behind by life. It's my turn damn it, I CHOOSE TO LIVE!!!!
So Michelle's birthday falls on next Monday this year. I will be going out to dinner that night at Carrabba's on 44th Street if anyone would like to come. I am not much of a party planner and so, while I am dying to see you guys, I really don't know how to get a party together and as such, probably won't have one:(
I am very tired today. I couldn't sleep last night. When you start playing the "what if" game you only succeed in making yourself nuts. I still am very hurt and would have liked to know about Tre and Chris. I am however unable to hold onto the good mad I had going on. Regrets aren't fun but I have only myself to blame for them. I should have made amends with him along time ago. Fear kept me from doing that. I am tired of being afraid of everything. I am afraid that people won't care what I have to say and will ignore me. I am afraid of giving others my heart lest they hurt or break it. I want to be fully active in this life but am afraid to do so.
Thus, my New Year's resolution: I will endevor to fully participate in life. I will give my heart others and pray they don't break it but not fear they will. I will be a better friend. I will realize that I make it easy for people to ignore me by not calling, visiting or keeping up with them. I will realize it takes two people to destroy a relationship and not cast blame. I will always love those I have lost, be it through death or time, but learn to cherish the memories and not be paralyzed by them. I will learn to think of future and plan for it instead if living only in the now. I will try my best to remember improtant things, be they birthdays, names, dates, or presents. I will tell my friends I love them and let them know I don't ever want to lose them. Finally, I will start a diary to chronicle my day and anaylze my life. In short I am sick and tired of being left behind by life. It's my turn damn it, I CHOOSE TO LIVE!!!!