Notes
I really have a hard time getting ahold of people these days, mostly 'cause my life has been chaos lately (thank you, philosophy), so here are messages to people I can't seem to get to any other way...
To Cat: I'm not afraid of you, but I am afraid I'll scare you away if I try to be around you to much. You did say that you don't like to be surrounded. Just expect me to be sparse until I find a good balance of seeing you that won't freak you out, but I still like you...fear not.
To Amanda: I am so upset that I havn't been able to see you! I know it's hard since you're only on campus one day and I don't have a car... but I get out of play practice at 6 on thursdays so why don't I try to meet you? I'd come to your clinic, but I don't know what room it's in or if I'd ail to catch you. Clue me in... you know I'll do my best.
To Tom: You really don't have a clue what I'm upset about do you? I really feel like you're avoiding me more because of things that happened outside of my control than anything I did. It seems wrong to me although I understand why you feel this way, why you might want to avoid me by association, and I respect this. All I ask is that you really examine why you want to be distanced from me specifically. You don't want to know about the drama that happens in my life, but you don't want me to hide it from you either...you've told me this more than once. That's quite a contadiction for me to deal with, and I have trouble with it. What hurts me is that I get the feeling that you would still want to be distanced from me even if I stopped telling you when things went wrong(is this true?), and that is what I've been trying to do... more for myself than for you. A little patience might go a long way for us if you still want to be friends. Give me a call if you feel like trying.
To Mel: I miss seeing you. I know you are hard to find, but I need to hang out with you more. At least come over and play Pikmin or something. I'm like, HELP! I'M ALONE IN THE HOUSE WITH NO CAR AND I'M GOING INSANE!!! (laughs)
To Cat: I'm not afraid of you, but I am afraid I'll scare you away if I try to be around you to much. You did say that you don't like to be surrounded. Just expect me to be sparse until I find a good balance of seeing you that won't freak you out, but I still like you...fear not.
To Amanda: I am so upset that I havn't been able to see you! I know it's hard since you're only on campus one day and I don't have a car... but I get out of play practice at 6 on thursdays so why don't I try to meet you? I'd come to your clinic, but I don't know what room it's in or if I'd ail to catch you. Clue me in... you know I'll do my best.
To Tom: You really don't have a clue what I'm upset about do you? I really feel like you're avoiding me more because of things that happened outside of my control than anything I did. It seems wrong to me although I understand why you feel this way, why you might want to avoid me by association, and I respect this. All I ask is that you really examine why you want to be distanced from me specifically. You don't want to know about the drama that happens in my life, but you don't want me to hide it from you either...you've told me this more than once. That's quite a contadiction for me to deal with, and I have trouble with it. What hurts me is that I get the feeling that you would still want to be distanced from me even if I stopped telling you when things went wrong(is this true?), and that is what I've been trying to do... more for myself than for you. A little patience might go a long way for us if you still want to be friends. Give me a call if you feel like trying.
To Mel: I miss seeing you. I know you are hard to find, but I need to hang out with you more. At least come over and play Pikmin or something. I'm like, HELP! I'M ALONE IN THE HOUSE WITH NO CAR AND I'M GOING INSANE!!! (laughs)