not such a happy new year
I had my doctor's appointment yesterday and my hemoglobin and B12 levels are low, not dangerously low, but enough that she's putting me on the insulin shots, the last thing I wanted. I go in on Thursday to learn how to do it. I'm praying it's the preloaded epi pen like ones because I'm terrified of air bubbles. I'm also slightly anemic and my kidneys aren't bad but not great (my mom has kidney disease so this could be hereditary). So I have to go on some very expensive blood pressure medicine for that (yeah, weird, but my mom was on the same drug for a while for her kidneys). My BP is actually okay, 130 over 80.
The doctor did say that if my hemoglobin levels become normal I can stop the insulin, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed about that. I go back in three months so I'm determined to lose at least twenty five pounds by then. I only lost four over the last six weeks, but I'm convinced the nurse weighed me wrong last time, I've been eating normal food over the last ten days, and I was wearing heavy boots due to the snow that was falling.
So, yeah, we had about two inches of snow yesterday, too. When I was out in the morning and then at work until 1:30 it was still above freezing so wasn't sticking to the streets, but the temp continued to drop. So I get to spend part of my New Year's day shoveling my damn sidewalks.
I had absolutely no desire to write anything yesterday but I'm going to force myself to do it today or I won't get anything done for wish lists and fandom stockings. It's not that I'm really depressed or upset, I'm just not happy about the insulin. It's the one thing I did not want. The diet, exercise, pills, nausea, I can handle all that, but shots? Not so sure about that. Also, it's just one more expense I can't afford.
So, all I did yesterday after that was lay on the couch reading more TW fanfic and watching football and basketball. I barely made it till midnight--waiting for my parents to call. I was tired by 11:30. Today I shall endeavor to write, but, first the Rose Parade and brunch. Diet tomorrow. Junk food to make me feel better, today. I'm making biscuits and gravy.
Hopefully the new year will get better. I wonder if the mild anemia explains why I'm so fricking cold (and often tired) all the time?
The doctor did say that if my hemoglobin levels become normal I can stop the insulin, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed about that. I go back in three months so I'm determined to lose at least twenty five pounds by then. I only lost four over the last six weeks, but I'm convinced the nurse weighed me wrong last time, I've been eating normal food over the last ten days, and I was wearing heavy boots due to the snow that was falling.
So, yeah, we had about two inches of snow yesterday, too. When I was out in the morning and then at work until 1:30 it was still above freezing so wasn't sticking to the streets, but the temp continued to drop. So I get to spend part of my New Year's day shoveling my damn sidewalks.
I had absolutely no desire to write anything yesterday but I'm going to force myself to do it today or I won't get anything done for wish lists and fandom stockings. It's not that I'm really depressed or upset, I'm just not happy about the insulin. It's the one thing I did not want. The diet, exercise, pills, nausea, I can handle all that, but shots? Not so sure about that. Also, it's just one more expense I can't afford.
So, all I did yesterday after that was lay on the couch reading more TW fanfic and watching football and basketball. I barely made it till midnight--waiting for my parents to call. I was tired by 11:30. Today I shall endeavor to write, but, first the Rose Parade and brunch. Diet tomorrow. Junk food to make me feel better, today. I'm making biscuits and gravy.
Hopefully the new year will get better. I wonder if the mild anemia explains why I'm so fricking cold (and often tired) all the time?