Possitive
I have done alot of thinking in the last 3 1/2 weeks that i have been trapped here alone . I have become stronger . I dont hurt anymore . I am completely over the things he has said and done to me . I will be happy on my own . Why did I let someone so insignificant ruin so much of my life ? My own stupidity has wasted a year and a half and I wont let it happen again . I have had to many men like him in my life that have abused and lied to me . I am single . At first I looked at it in the same pessimistic way I have looked at everything else in my life . I am also done with that . I am single . I carry that label with optimism and the knowledge that there is someone out there for me who wont abuse me , try to take my life , and say awful things about me . I am single . But I have never been single and 21 before . There are so many possibilities out there for me and I intend to take them . I am done wasting my life on men who dont deserve to breathe . I wont fight for anyone again who isnt willing to fight for me first . I am going on a mission to be me and I am opening up a window in my life i never thought I would open . I am going to learn to drive a semi . Lol as funny as that sounds , it comes to me full of opportunity and adventure . For once I am going to live my life and not let someone control it . I am going to travel and see new places and meet lots of new friends from all over the country and make lots of money . I dont need anyone . So to all the men who have brought me down and turned me into something I hated , FUCK YOU!!! The old me is gone and the new me is here to stay . I will never let anyone change me again .