Wondering
I need to know how you feel . But you dont talk . You look ok , but I dont trust your actions , since things were bad and i had no idea because you acted normal . I watch you sitting there like everything is fine , and I wonder if they really are . I wonder if you are deciding to send me away or keep me . And it is stressing me out . Because i dont want to be surprised with having to leave . Surprises are suposed to be good . I wonder if I am making you any happier . I know I have been working my ass off to take care of you . I mean I want to take care of you . I love you and I love taking care of you . But I wonder if I am doing it for nothing or if it is really making a difference in wether you want me to stay or leave . I hope I am making you want to be with me . But thats the thing , I dont want to hope . I want to know . Because I am wondering if I need to work harder or not . Can you tell me ?