An Off Day
I don't know what's wrong with me today. Well actually it hasn't been all day. Just the last couple of hours.I don't feel like being close to anyone. I just kind of feel like I want to be alone. I spent the day with Tony. It was nice. I really enjoyed the 1 on 1 time. I don't know what changed all of a sudden.
I have been having mixed feelings the last couple of days. Tony and I had a very emotional night the other night. We shared our deepest most horrific secrets with each other. I had one and he had two. I can never let any of the 3 out. I will take them to my grave I swear.
My mixed feelings don't question my love or position with Antonio......at all. Actually I have been thinking about our marriage. Neither one of us want a wedding but our friends and family are pushing one at us. I am ready to just sneak off and get married at the Justice of the Peace. Then they can throw us a reception if they want something more formal. I'm ready. I don't want to wait anymore. I wish this money would hurry up and come to us.
I feel strangely emotionless right now. I didn't get near enough sleep last night...That probably doesn't help any. I just don't like feeling this way. It bothers me. I don't know what to do about it though....
I just wanted to write my feelings out while I had a minute.
I have been having mixed feelings the last couple of days. Tony and I had a very emotional night the other night. We shared our deepest most horrific secrets with each other. I had one and he had two. I can never let any of the 3 out. I will take them to my grave I swear.
My mixed feelings don't question my love or position with Antonio......at all. Actually I have been thinking about our marriage. Neither one of us want a wedding but our friends and family are pushing one at us. I am ready to just sneak off and get married at the Justice of the Peace. Then they can throw us a reception if they want something more formal. I'm ready. I don't want to wait anymore. I wish this money would hurry up and come to us.
I feel strangely emotionless right now. I didn't get near enough sleep last night...That probably doesn't help any. I just don't like feeling this way. It bothers me. I don't know what to do about it though....
I just wanted to write my feelings out while I had a minute.