Shall I Return?
So I am wondering if it is ok to return. I have missed having a place to put my thoughts and feelings. I haven't been doing a lot of writing on paper lately. I have been keeping busy a lot. So long as the people who ran me off will fuck off and leave me alone I will be ok.
I am enjoying life. I am the happiest I have ever been. I am living the life I want to live. I am almost complete. I may not be rich but I am definanetly well. I have my nice house. It is the biggest house I have ever set foot in. I love it. It is roomy and cozy at the same time. I have my new family with me and we are so close. It is nice. The family I was never lucky enough to have is mine now. Don't get me wrong.....My family is here and I love them in their own way.....but things with them are fucked up and will never be the same. I am not close to my family at all. I barely talk to them. I wish things were different but they aren't. So I choose to be happy with my new family instead of miserable and alone.
I am more in love than I could ever dream possible. I have found the one to complete me and fill all the voids in my life. The one I thought "He" was but wasn't. I knew from the moment Tony set foot in my presence that he was the one. I knew I loved him instantly with no doubt or questions. Now we are sharing our lives and have become one. I am so happy that we arent living apart any more. The nights he wasn't there were lonely. We got our house in January.
So how about a little about him....He is the most amazing person ; man, woman , adult , child , young or old person ; I have ever met...
He is , by far , the best person I have ever been with. He is the only man I have ever been with that my family has actually liked. As a matter of fact , they adore him. But then again who wouldn't? He is the complete opposite of guys I would usually go for. He is the only guy I have ever been with younger than me. He is only 19. He will be 20 on November 26th. I turn 24 in October. He is more mature than mopst men I have been with. He is shorter than guys I am normally attracted to. He is an inch shorter than me. I normally date guys over 6 feet tall and in their 30's. I don't know what it is about him.....but I can't stand to be away from him for more than 5 minutes. When we are apart I feel empty inside. And as soon as we are back together that warm full feeling comes back. Things I could never stand about men before don't bother me about him.
We have been talking a lot about marriage. I think It is going to happen soon. He has already told me that he wants to spend the rest of his life with me. And he wants me to give him a baby. I hope I can. It's not likely. But I hope I can. Those are the only two things left to complete my happiness and my life with him.
Well I guess I am done for now. I have to drive out to the south side to pick him up from work.
I am enjoying life. I am the happiest I have ever been. I am living the life I want to live. I am almost complete. I may not be rich but I am definanetly well. I have my nice house. It is the biggest house I have ever set foot in. I love it. It is roomy and cozy at the same time. I have my new family with me and we are so close. It is nice. The family I was never lucky enough to have is mine now. Don't get me wrong.....My family is here and I love them in their own way.....but things with them are fucked up and will never be the same. I am not close to my family at all. I barely talk to them. I wish things were different but they aren't. So I choose to be happy with my new family instead of miserable and alone.
I am more in love than I could ever dream possible. I have found the one to complete me and fill all the voids in my life. The one I thought "He" was but wasn't. I knew from the moment Tony set foot in my presence that he was the one. I knew I loved him instantly with no doubt or questions. Now we are sharing our lives and have become one. I am so happy that we arent living apart any more. The nights he wasn't there were lonely. We got our house in January.
So how about a little about him....He is the most amazing person ; man, woman , adult , child , young or old person ; I have ever met...
He is , by far , the best person I have ever been with. He is the only man I have ever been with that my family has actually liked. As a matter of fact , they adore him. But then again who wouldn't? He is the complete opposite of guys I would usually go for. He is the only guy I have ever been with younger than me. He is only 19. He will be 20 on November 26th. I turn 24 in October. He is more mature than mopst men I have been with. He is shorter than guys I am normally attracted to. He is an inch shorter than me. I normally date guys over 6 feet tall and in their 30's. I don't know what it is about him.....but I can't stand to be away from him for more than 5 minutes. When we are apart I feel empty inside. And as soon as we are back together that warm full feeling comes back. Things I could never stand about men before don't bother me about him.
We have been talking a lot about marriage. I think It is going to happen soon. He has already told me that he wants to spend the rest of his life with me. And he wants me to give him a baby. I hope I can. It's not likely. But I hope I can. Those are the only two things left to complete my happiness and my life with him.
Well I guess I am done for now. I have to drive out to the south side to pick him up from work.