And From Lust to Dust ch 14/?
Title: And From Lust to Dust
Chapters: chapter 14/ ?
Genre: AU
Word Count: 1868
Ratings: PG 13 (will go up later)
Pairings/Characters: ReitaXUruha, Aoi/Reita (one sided), (others later on)
Synopsis: You know getting shot isn't really all that painful, its trying to breathe afterwards that hurts. I am no longer scared of death now. There is no life without love. My name is Akira Suzuki. I am 21 years old and by the time the clock strikes midnight I'll be dead.
Comments: Not much to say. This is as close to fluff as I am getting.
Aoi and I were woken up by hard banging on the door and Miyavi’s voice. “Aye, you two wake up.”
Aoi cursed threw a random object from his bedside table at the door.
Miyavi opened the door a bit and stuck his head threw the crack. “Good morning to you too Big Brother.”
“Miya shouldn’t you be asleep?”
“Mmm funny you should mention the word ‘sleep’ you know , I had a real hard time attempting to get any sleep last night with all the noise you two were making. These walls aren’t that thick you know. Aoi, you could at least have some consideration for me, it’s very traumatizing hearing your brother have sex. I really feel for Uruha since his room is right next to yours. So do us all a favor for next time, go fuck somewhere else please.” Miyavi smiled and closed the door.
I was embarrassed. I was about to get up and take an shower when Aoi warped a leg around my waist holding me in place, “Reita go back to sleep.”
“Stop telling me what to do.”
“Make me.”
“Come on, Aoi get off of me I’m tired.”
“So then go back to sleep.”
My tired brain somehow registered the fact that I had just lost the argument. I sighed and just went back to sleep.
When I woke up again Aoi was gone. I was glad it gave me time to re think what happened last night between us. Normally when a person thinks about losing their virginity they imagine it to be with the person they love and for it to be a loving and romantic experience. I didn’t love Aoi and being with him wasn’t romantic at all. But I had enjoyed every moment of it. And I wasn’t sure if I was happy about that fact yet.
I deiced to take a shower and that’s when I realized their was something on my forehead. It was a post it with Aoi’s neat hand writing on it. Morning baby. I had to run out with Miya to Tokyo our father called us up. Don’t worry about Uruha I talked to him and told him not to try and shot at you or anything else that would result in me braking a couple of bones in his body due to his rash emotions. Miya and I will be back sometime tonight. Have fun with Uruha, good luck talking things out with him. Love, Aoi
I rolled my eyes and threw the note down. In my mind I cursed Aoi thanks Aoi a whole lot for leaving me home alone with an emotionally unstable Uruha.
Some part of me dreaded meeting Uruha but after taking a shower and putting on some clean clothes I felt more composed and ready to confront Uruha. However my composure went right out the window once I went inside Uruha’s room. Anything that wasn’t nailed down was turned over and shattered into pieces on the floor. Uruha knocked down his dresses, his nightstands, even his computer laid on the floor in pieces. I began to get really worried when I saw pieces of glass on the floor, I am guessing from breaking his mirror. Interesting enough Uruha’s bed was the only thing that remained untouched.
“Uruha?” I called out worriedly when I didn’t see him in his room. I went into his bathroom he was there but there was his broken bathroom mirror with blood stains on some of the pieces. Now I was scared and was starting to panic.
I ran searching through the house for Uruha but he wasn’t in any of the rooms. I was ready to start hyperventilating when I realized where Uruha was. Behind Uruha’s house was nothing but small forest area for about 30 miles where it ended the next town began. I had explored the area once when we were eleven. We never fully explored it we stopped once we came across a fallen tree. It must have been only five miles in. I search for a flashlight before leaving the house I grabbed a first aid kit as well and then I began searching for Uruha.
When I saw Uruha I stopped breathing. He laying on the forest floor next to the fallen tree. His face covered by his blonde hair. He looked like a fallen angel. I would have been relived to see him if he was moving, but he was laying so still and there were blood stains on his shirt and hands.
“Uruha,” I called out worried that he wouldn’t respond to me. Lucky for me Uruha lifted his head and looked at me, I never been so happy before in my life. Uruha was okay. I ran towards him and dropped to my knees and held his face in my hands, “You don’t know how worried I was when I saw your room . . . And then when I saw the blood in the bathroom . . . Uruha what happened?”
Uruha looked away from me and tried to smack my hands away but I wouldn’t let him go. “Uruha I was worried about . . . I still am . . . Where did the blood come from?”
I grabbed one of his hands an examined them to my relief the cuts where in knuckles and hand area only there weren’t any wounds on his wrist. “You got this from breaking the mirror?”
Uruha still wasn’t speaking to me but I was so relived that he hadn’t hurt himself on purpose I didn’t mind. Instead I opened up the first aid kit and began to clean his cuts. “Your lucky none of the glass got stuck in your hand. Or that these wounds aren’t deep enough for stitches.”
“Why does it matter to you?”
“You’re my friend I care about you.” Uruha snatched his hand away from me after I said that.
“Shouldn’t you be inside with your lover.”
“I don’t have one.”
Uruha glared at me, “I am not stupid I heard you and Aoi all night long!” Uruha pushed me away and stood up and began to pace along the forest floor. “I tell you I love you and what do you do? You go and sleep with someone else! Without even warning me you had a lover! I had no idea you and Aoi were dating, I should have suspected. You know what hurts so much, here I was worried you wasn’t interested in guys and you are! And you never told me! I thought we were suppose to be friends! And you didn’t tell me anything . . . You didn’t tell me anything.” Uruha sank back to his knees and started crying again.
“First of all, Aoi and I are not dating. And trust me there is no love between us.”
This didn’t calm Uruha down at all. “So you just fucked him? After I tell you I love you, you fuck someone, no not just someone but a mutual friend, knowing good and damn well I would hear!!!!”
“That pretty much summarizes it.”
Uruha gave me a look of complete disbelief. “You did that just to hurt me.”
“Yeah I did.”
“And you don’t feel bad at all?”
“Tell me Uruha how do you feel right now?”
“Hurt . . . Heartbroken . . . Betrayed. . . I can’t believe you did that to me.” His voice was barely above a whisper, tears flowing freely down his face.
“Good now you know how I been feeling a week ago.”
Uruha looked at me in disbelief. And now I understood what Aoi meant last night about what to hurt Uruha.
“But . . . Why?”
“You know when you’re a kid, and someone hits you, you hit them back to get even. Now we are even Uruha. You broke my heart, and I broke yours.”
“Reita . . .”
“I am a human being Uruha, not a Saint. I swore to you I would stay with you. I never swore I would allow you to treat me any way and not do anything about it. I don’t feel sorry for you at all. You can sit there and cry all you want, but what is done is done. You did something unforgivable and I did something unforgivable. You want me, your going to have to get over it.” I held Uruha’s face in my hands once more, “Look at me Uruha. I swore I’ll be with you until my dying breath. You want me, you have me. But don’t lie to me, don’t hurt me, don’t betray me. That all I ask of you in return, please don’t betray me.”
“Promise to love only me. If you can’t promise me that then I don’t want you near me anymore. It’ll drive me mad seeing you with Aoi or anyone else. Promise to leave only me and you never have to worry about me betraying you again.”
Now some people might that I got the worst end of the bargain I had to swear to Uruha to never leave him and to love only him while all he had to do was just never betray me. But I never had much common sense around Uruha. I never really wanted anything but to see Uruha be happy.
“Smile for me and you’ll be the only one I’ll love.”
He smiled for me, it wasn’t the radiant smile he had when he was eleven but close enough. I kissed him. We’ve been dating since.
I cleaned up Uruha’s cuts and we returned to the house hold hands. Uruha was busy smiling and wasn’t crying anymore. We were happily chattering away like the old friends we were. Everything was great . . . Until we saw Aoi again.
I told Uruha I had to go upstairs to get my bag from Aoi’s room and Uruha insisted on following me. Which was a mistake because as soon as Aoi heard our foot steps he opened his door. He handed me my duffle bag before I could say anything and made it a point to kiss me on the lips, even though I am sure he notice I was holding Uruha’s hand. “I pack everything for you Reita-baby. Night . . . Oh and Uruha the maid cleaned up your room but your father said you have to wait a few days before he gets you a new computer.” Aoi waved and closed his door.
I looked over at Uruha and the smile was gone from his face and he was glaring at Aoi’s door with an intense look of hatred. And somehow I knew Aoi hated Uruha just as much. But those two never said anything to each other and just keep on acting friendly.
I didn’t have much of a chance to worry about those two relationship because by the next day Uruha’s father had given us an assignment. Something simple “drop off a payment to Kyo at the KR Cube in Tokyo.” That assignment was anything was simple. And that was where I saw someone die for the very first time in my life.
AN: Okay now that the relationship mess it out of the way I can get into the Yakuza story plot.
Some good news some bad news. I have the last paragraph of the story written. I cried while writing it. And I finally deiced who shoots Reita. At first I thought the person would be Mr.X for like the first two chapters. Then for like ten chapters I was like Mr.Y shall kill Reita. But while writing the last paragraph I realize I couldn’t have Mr.Y kill of Reita. So Mr.Z shall kill off Reita. Some good news, since I can now focus on the Yakuza plot a few jrockers shall be guest appearances, as you can see Dir en Grey is the first band to show up cause I am a total Diru fan girl along with another band.
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previous chapter
Chapters: chapter 14/ ?
Genre: AU
Word Count: 1868
Ratings: PG 13 (will go up later)
Pairings/Characters: ReitaXUruha, Aoi/Reita (one sided), (others later on)
Synopsis: You know getting shot isn't really all that painful, its trying to breathe afterwards that hurts. I am no longer scared of death now. There is no life without love. My name is Akira Suzuki. I am 21 years old and by the time the clock strikes midnight I'll be dead.
Comments: Not much to say. This is as close to fluff as I am getting.
Aoi and I were woken up by hard banging on the door and Miyavi’s voice. “Aye, you two wake up.”
Aoi cursed threw a random object from his bedside table at the door.
Miyavi opened the door a bit and stuck his head threw the crack. “Good morning to you too Big Brother.”
“Miya shouldn’t you be asleep?”
“Mmm funny you should mention the word ‘sleep’ you know , I had a real hard time attempting to get any sleep last night with all the noise you two were making. These walls aren’t that thick you know. Aoi, you could at least have some consideration for me, it’s very traumatizing hearing your brother have sex. I really feel for Uruha since his room is right next to yours. So do us all a favor for next time, go fuck somewhere else please.” Miyavi smiled and closed the door.
I was embarrassed. I was about to get up and take an shower when Aoi warped a leg around my waist holding me in place, “Reita go back to sleep.”
“Stop telling me what to do.”
“Make me.”
“Come on, Aoi get off of me I’m tired.”
“So then go back to sleep.”
My tired brain somehow registered the fact that I had just lost the argument. I sighed and just went back to sleep.
When I woke up again Aoi was gone. I was glad it gave me time to re think what happened last night between us. Normally when a person thinks about losing their virginity they imagine it to be with the person they love and for it to be a loving and romantic experience. I didn’t love Aoi and being with him wasn’t romantic at all. But I had enjoyed every moment of it. And I wasn’t sure if I was happy about that fact yet.
I deiced to take a shower and that’s when I realized their was something on my forehead. It was a post it with Aoi’s neat hand writing on it. Morning baby. I had to run out with Miya to Tokyo our father called us up. Don’t worry about Uruha I talked to him and told him not to try and shot at you or anything else that would result in me braking a couple of bones in his body due to his rash emotions. Miya and I will be back sometime tonight. Have fun with Uruha, good luck talking things out with him. Love, Aoi
I rolled my eyes and threw the note down. In my mind I cursed Aoi thanks Aoi a whole lot for leaving me home alone with an emotionally unstable Uruha.
Some part of me dreaded meeting Uruha but after taking a shower and putting on some clean clothes I felt more composed and ready to confront Uruha. However my composure went right out the window once I went inside Uruha’s room. Anything that wasn’t nailed down was turned over and shattered into pieces on the floor. Uruha knocked down his dresses, his nightstands, even his computer laid on the floor in pieces. I began to get really worried when I saw pieces of glass on the floor, I am guessing from breaking his mirror. Interesting enough Uruha’s bed was the only thing that remained untouched.
“Uruha?” I called out worriedly when I didn’t see him in his room. I went into his bathroom he was there but there was his broken bathroom mirror with blood stains on some of the pieces. Now I was scared and was starting to panic.
I ran searching through the house for Uruha but he wasn’t in any of the rooms. I was ready to start hyperventilating when I realized where Uruha was. Behind Uruha’s house was nothing but small forest area for about 30 miles where it ended the next town began. I had explored the area once when we were eleven. We never fully explored it we stopped once we came across a fallen tree. It must have been only five miles in. I search for a flashlight before leaving the house I grabbed a first aid kit as well and then I began searching for Uruha.
When I saw Uruha I stopped breathing. He laying on the forest floor next to the fallen tree. His face covered by his blonde hair. He looked like a fallen angel. I would have been relived to see him if he was moving, but he was laying so still and there were blood stains on his shirt and hands.
“Uruha,” I called out worried that he wouldn’t respond to me. Lucky for me Uruha lifted his head and looked at me, I never been so happy before in my life. Uruha was okay. I ran towards him and dropped to my knees and held his face in my hands, “You don’t know how worried I was when I saw your room . . . And then when I saw the blood in the bathroom . . . Uruha what happened?”
Uruha looked away from me and tried to smack my hands away but I wouldn’t let him go. “Uruha I was worried about . . . I still am . . . Where did the blood come from?”
I grabbed one of his hands an examined them to my relief the cuts where in knuckles and hand area only there weren’t any wounds on his wrist. “You got this from breaking the mirror?”
Uruha still wasn’t speaking to me but I was so relived that he hadn’t hurt himself on purpose I didn’t mind. Instead I opened up the first aid kit and began to clean his cuts. “Your lucky none of the glass got stuck in your hand. Or that these wounds aren’t deep enough for stitches.”
“Why does it matter to you?”
“You’re my friend I care about you.” Uruha snatched his hand away from me after I said that.
“Shouldn’t you be inside with your lover.”
“I don’t have one.”
Uruha glared at me, “I am not stupid I heard you and Aoi all night long!” Uruha pushed me away and stood up and began to pace along the forest floor. “I tell you I love you and what do you do? You go and sleep with someone else! Without even warning me you had a lover! I had no idea you and Aoi were dating, I should have suspected. You know what hurts so much, here I was worried you wasn’t interested in guys and you are! And you never told me! I thought we were suppose to be friends! And you didn’t tell me anything . . . You didn’t tell me anything.” Uruha sank back to his knees and started crying again.
“First of all, Aoi and I are not dating. And trust me there is no love between us.”
This didn’t calm Uruha down at all. “So you just fucked him? After I tell you I love you, you fuck someone, no not just someone but a mutual friend, knowing good and damn well I would hear!!!!”
“That pretty much summarizes it.”
Uruha gave me a look of complete disbelief. “You did that just to hurt me.”
“Yeah I did.”
“And you don’t feel bad at all?”
“Tell me Uruha how do you feel right now?”
“Hurt . . . Heartbroken . . . Betrayed. . . I can’t believe you did that to me.” His voice was barely above a whisper, tears flowing freely down his face.
“Good now you know how I been feeling a week ago.”
Uruha looked at me in disbelief. And now I understood what Aoi meant last night about what to hurt Uruha.
“But . . . Why?”
“You know when you’re a kid, and someone hits you, you hit them back to get even. Now we are even Uruha. You broke my heart, and I broke yours.”
“Reita . . .”
“I am a human being Uruha, not a Saint. I swore to you I would stay with you. I never swore I would allow you to treat me any way and not do anything about it. I don’t feel sorry for you at all. You can sit there and cry all you want, but what is done is done. You did something unforgivable and I did something unforgivable. You want me, your going to have to get over it.” I held Uruha’s face in my hands once more, “Look at me Uruha. I swore I’ll be with you until my dying breath. You want me, you have me. But don’t lie to me, don’t hurt me, don’t betray me. That all I ask of you in return, please don’t betray me.”
“Promise to love only me. If you can’t promise me that then I don’t want you near me anymore. It’ll drive me mad seeing you with Aoi or anyone else. Promise to leave only me and you never have to worry about me betraying you again.”
Now some people might that I got the worst end of the bargain I had to swear to Uruha to never leave him and to love only him while all he had to do was just never betray me. But I never had much common sense around Uruha. I never really wanted anything but to see Uruha be happy.
“Smile for me and you’ll be the only one I’ll love.”
He smiled for me, it wasn’t the radiant smile he had when he was eleven but close enough. I kissed him. We’ve been dating since.
I cleaned up Uruha’s cuts and we returned to the house hold hands. Uruha was busy smiling and wasn’t crying anymore. We were happily chattering away like the old friends we were. Everything was great . . . Until we saw Aoi again.
I told Uruha I had to go upstairs to get my bag from Aoi’s room and Uruha insisted on following me. Which was a mistake because as soon as Aoi heard our foot steps he opened his door. He handed me my duffle bag before I could say anything and made it a point to kiss me on the lips, even though I am sure he notice I was holding Uruha’s hand. “I pack everything for you Reita-baby. Night . . . Oh and Uruha the maid cleaned up your room but your father said you have to wait a few days before he gets you a new computer.” Aoi waved and closed his door.
I looked over at Uruha and the smile was gone from his face and he was glaring at Aoi’s door with an intense look of hatred. And somehow I knew Aoi hated Uruha just as much. But those two never said anything to each other and just keep on acting friendly.
I didn’t have much of a chance to worry about those two relationship because by the next day Uruha’s father had given us an assignment. Something simple “drop off a payment to Kyo at the KR Cube in Tokyo.” That assignment was anything was simple. And that was where I saw someone die for the very first time in my life.
AN: Okay now that the relationship mess it out of the way I can get into the Yakuza story plot.
Some good news some bad news. I have the last paragraph of the story written. I cried while writing it. And I finally deiced who shoots Reita. At first I thought the person would be Mr.X for like the first two chapters. Then for like ten chapters I was like Mr.Y shall kill Reita. But while writing the last paragraph I realize I couldn’t have Mr.Y kill of Reita. So Mr.Z shall kill off Reita. Some good news, since I can now focus on the Yakuza plot a few jrockers shall be guest appearances, as you can see Dir en Grey is the first band to show up cause I am a total Diru fan girl along with another band.
next chapter
previous chapter