And From Lust to Dust ch 13/?
Title: And From Lust to Dust
Chapters: chapter 13/ ?
Genre: AU
Word Count: 3079
Ratings: PG 13 (will go up later)
Pairings/Characters: ReitaXUruha, Aoi/Reita (one sided), (others later on)
Synopsis: You know getting shot isn't really all that painful, its trying to breathe afterwards that hurts. I am no longer scared of death now. There is no life without love. My name is Akira Suzuki. I am 21 years old and by the time the clock strikes midnight I'll be dead.
Comments: It took me forever to write this chapter. Longest chapter I even written. It’s kinda weird cause it starts off with someone getting hurt but it ends with someone getting laid. Oh! And return of creepy Aoi.
I spent the next few days hiding in Aoi’s room. Aoi had managed to somehow bring my duffle bag into his room. So I didn’t leave his room. I just hid in there like a ghost. Uruha would come by everyday and knock softly on the door and call my name begging for forgiveness but I refused to listen to him instead I buried my head under the pillow and tried to block out his voice.
The problem I had with Uruha now that I was no longer angry at him, instead I was just heartbroken. The last time I felt this depress was when Reila died.
For a whole week I was on good terms with Aoi since he was letting me hide in his room. He was smart enough to just leave me alone. But we didn’t speak much I just laid in bed attempting to sleep away my life somewhat hoping that this was all a bad dream and when I woke up I would be eleven year old Akira Suzuki playing soccer with his loyal friend Kouyou Takashima.
Ruki had to wind up in the hospital before I spoke to Uruha again. I was busy sleeping one night when I woken up by Aoi, “Get up Ruki got hit by a car,” I jumped out of bed.
“Huh what happened?”
“Ruki’s damn dog was in the street and wouldn’t move when a car was coming so Ruki went out to go get her.”
“Is he alright?”
“I am not sure.”
When we got outside the ambulance still hadn’t arrived yet. Although I doubt I would be able to hear the sirens with the way Ruki’s mother was screaming. “No! Not my Takanori too!!!”
Most of the neighborhood was outside and crowding around to see what was going on.
I didn’t get a chance to see what Ruki looked like the ambulance finally decided to show up when I tried to get closer to my friend.
I knew there was no way in hell I was going to be able to visit Ruki within the next 48 hours so I just went inside the house. I had somehow lost Aoi so I returned to the house alone. I thought about returning to Aoi’s room and hiding under the pillow like I do every time I hear Uruha’s voice, but instead I sat on one of the living room couches and waiting for the other’s to return.
As fate would have it Uruha was the first one to return. He looked at me in shock and was quiet. It was the first time he saw me since he shot at me. I could tell he wanted to say something to me but was too afraid I would just go into hiding again. So I spoke first. “Do you know how Ruki is doing? Was he still alive?”
Uruha nodded his head. “He was alive but unconscious.”
“How did he look?”
“Well . . .bloody.” And that’s when Uruha started to cry.
I went over to him and held him, and that’s when I noticed the blood on him. “Uruha you were there when it happened?”
He nodded and cling to me, “Miyavi, Ruki and I were outside just hanging out like any other night. Ruki had Sabu-chan with him, you know how much he loves that dog,” Uruha began to cry harder. I held him and waited until he was more together before taking his hand, “Come on Uruha we have to get you all cleaned up,” I led him up stairs. Like Aoi’s room, Uruha’s room had a private bathroom connected to his. I turned on the shower, “Come on Uruha, you need to get cleaned up.” In better lighting I could see that Uruha even had blood in parts of his hair.
But Uruha didn’t respond to my words he just stood there still in shock crying softly. Since Uruha was wearing a button down shirt I began to un do the buttons. He didn’t bother to move me away. He allowed me to take off his shirt for him. He still wouldn’t speak or move though. So I began to work on taking off his jeans. But before I could take them off Uruha grabbed my wrist. I looked up startled.
“Reita . . . Do you forgive me?”
“No,” I answered honestly. “None of that now, Uruha we need to get you clean up. You’ll feel better after a shower.”
A fresh batch of tears began to run down Uruha’s face. I expected him to remain quiet but instead he began to get hysrtical. Before I knew it Uruha was on his knees, his arms wrapped around my waist hold me in place and his face buried in the lower half of my torso. I might not have been able to understand the words Uruha was saying with all the crying he was doing but he started screaming as he hugged me tight to him.
“Reita . . .I am so sorry. I don’t know what to do to make you forgive me. I don’t deserve you . . . But Reita-” Uruha had to stop speaking he was crying too hard. I struggled to get free from Uruha’s tight grip and too my surprise as soon as he felt me want to get away he let go.
Uruha looked back up at me. “I understand if you want to leave me. I’ve been so horrible to you. But Reita . . .” Once more Uruha stopped. “You can leave me . . . You should leave me. But please know I am so sorry. I never wanted to hurt you.”
I was kneeling now so that I could be level with Uruha. I held his face in my hands and I began to wipe away his tears. “I don’t know if I can believe you,” My tone wasn’t harsh or reprimanding. It was the opposite. “You killed someone . . . No not just someone but your friend’s sister and your friend’s girlfriend. You lied to me. And just a week ago you fired a gun at me. I can maybe somewhat forgive you for killing Reila, you was young and grew up around violence, but I cannot forgive you for trying to shoot me.”
“Reita I am so sorry, I never should have done any of those things but I don’t know how to think straight around you. I just want you with me and only me.”
“Uruha why are you so crazy about me? Why don’t you treat Ruki like this? Or Aoi? Miyavi? Why me?”
Uruha was quite. He didn’t even look up at me. I was about to give up hoping for an answer when he looked up at me. His hands went behind my head and he began to until my banana. I was confused for a moment as to why he was doing that but before I could ask Uruha kissed me. Uruha’s kiss was completely different from Aoi’s. While Aoi was a fierce kisser and knew what he was doing. Uruha’s kiss was gentle and I could tell
Uruha didn’t know what he was doing. He didn’t have any of Aoi’s confidence and was unsure of himself.
I didn’t push Uruha away nor did I encourage him. The kiss was simple and over very quickly. “I love you,” Uruha admitted softly.
I didn’t know how to react so I just stayed quite.
“Reita please say something . . . Anything.”
“Uruha you need to take a shower. You even have blood in your hair.” Since I wasn’t sure what to say about Uruha’s confession I decided not to say anything about it. This greatly upset Uruha.
“Reita not that . . . I just told you I love you! Say something about that! I don’t care if you call me a fag and tell never to touch you again just acknowledge the fact that I love you, please.”
I sighed. “Uruha you aimed a gun at me and shot me, you don’t love me. If you did you wouldn’t want me dead.”
“But I didn’t want you dead, I just didn’t want you to leave me! I only shot at your bag. Please . . . Reita please I am begging you, please forgive me. Reita I’ll do anything you’ll ask for if it’ll make your forgive me. Anything! You want me to go to the police? I swear I’ll admit to Reila’s murder.”
“No don’t do that, it’ll destroy Ruki if he found out his friend murdered his sister.”
“Then what do you want from me? Name it, I’ll do it! Anything Reita, anything! You mean so much to mean, if you want to leave me then leave me. I can’t stand to see you so miserable and know that I am the cause.”
I was quiet for a moment. “Uruha . . . There is nothing you can do to make me forgive you. What you did was unforgivable. It doesn’t matter if I love you or not, we can’t start a relationship.”
“Reita-”
“Uruha, enough. Stop crying and take a shower I am going to bed.” I stood up but before I could leave Uruha desperately grabbed me around my waist again.
“Akira!”
I looked at him and for a moment no one said anything before I spoke again, “Akira loved Kouyou. But those two people don’t exist anymore.” Uruha looked up as if I just ripped out his heart and shoved it down a blender.
I took advantage of state of shock and pulled my self free from his grasp and left for Aoi’s room.
When I entered Aoi’s room he was laying on his bed reading. That was no big surprise Aoi did have a large collection of books. I had decided to look at the books on his shelf one day but once I saw the Karma Sutra next to Mein Kampf I got scared and figured I would be better off just laying in bed. I think it was fact that he had those two books next to each other that scared me rather than the books themselves.
I looked at the book in Aoi’s hands. It was brown and one of the largest books I ever seen, “What are you reading?” He showed me the cover but I couldn’t understand the gold letters. “It’s in English?”
Aoi nodded his head, “ But I am sure you heard of it.”
I looked confused for a moment.
“It’s the Bible. I got the King James Version.”
“What are you doing reading that? Your not a Christian!”
“So? Aren’t you curious what 1.9 billion people believe in.”
“No . . . not really.”
Aoi laughed. “It’s really interesting. . . Well not all of it is but I really like the Book of Revelation.”
“What is that about?”
“The end of the world.”
I was speechless. Aoi just patted the empty spot on the bed next to him. Only then did I realize I had been standing the whole time. I went over wordlessly and laid down. Aoi had already placed the book on his bedside table. I was aware of the fact that Aoi was staring at me, I didn’t say anything at first but after a while it got annoying. “What?”
“That is a good question.”
“Please Aoi no games.”
“What are you going to do about Uruha?”
I hid my head under the pillow but Aoi snatched it away from me. “Well what are you going to do about him? He loves you. And you love him.”
I glared at him, “You don’t know what your talking about.”
“I know more than you think. I know you came to Uruha because you thought he was a like a fairy tale princess trapped in this house. And you being the chivalrous Knight you are, promised your fair maiden you would never leave him.”
I glared at Aoi.
“Uruha told me while talking about you. You wouldn’t know because you stayed away from the house the first month I lived here. He talked about you every single day.”
This surprised me. “I thought he had forgotten me.”
“Are you kidding me? He wouldn’t shut up about you. Ruki ended up throwing a boot at him once. Nearly every sentence out his mouth began with your name. That’s why I was so interested to meet you. By then I already figured out that you didn’t like me.”
“You’re a murderer.”
“And so is Uruha.”
“Your happy about that aren’t you?”
“I am very much so.”
I glared at him.
“Oh Reita what makes you happier, having Uruha smile in your face all the while lying to you? Or dealing with me who always tells the truth?”
“Uruha tells the truth.”
“Sometimes.”
“Well at least he doesn’t plot against me.”
“I don’t plot against you.”
“No just about me.”
“Well your not the easiest person to seduce.”
“What do you want from me?”
“Not much just your soul,” He smiled at me.
“You’re the Devil.”
“No I’m God, Uruha is Lucifer.”
I looked at him confused.
Aoi began to explain his logic to me. “God knows everything that is going to happen, good and bad. But he doesn’t stop anything from happening. He gives humans chances of course to redeem themselves but they have free will so the choice is theirs to make. I knew Uruha was going to kill Reila. I neither encouraged him nor discouraged. I allowed him to use his free will. Lucifer was God’s greatest angel. He was the most beautiful angel but grew jealous of God and leave a revolt against God. He of course lost and was cast down to hell with his followers. Uruha is my pupil. I been told a bunch of times before that I’m pretty, but seriously, put a skirt on Uruha and you wouldn’t be able to tell the difference. And Uruha’s jealously was his downfall.”
“So, God, what else do you think you know?”
“I know why you can’t forgive Uruha.”
“Why is that?”
“Because you want to hurt him.”
I was stunned into silence.
“You can get over the fact that he hurt you so badly, and you’ll only keep holding on to it. But if you hurt Uruha, then you two will be even. ’An eye for an eye.’”
“I couldn’t hurt Uruha.”
“Really? You think so? Are you willing to place a bet?”
“What makes you so sure of yourself.”
“It’s 10:46 right now, I bet you by time the clock strikes midnight you’ll have hurt Uruha.
“That’s physically impossible. I am not going back to Uruha’s room.”
Aoi laughed, “Who said anything about hurting him physically? He didn’t hurt you physically.”
“And how will I manage to hurt him.”
“I am sure you’ll figure something out.”
“He told me he loves me.”
“Are you surprised? Oh that’s right your still confused about your own sexuality.”
“I am not confused.”
“So your ready to admit your attracted to men?”
“I am-”
“Before you even deny it, lets not forget a week ago you were begging for me to fuck you.”
“I was drunk.”
“And? When your drunk you do things you want to do. It’s just you don’t want to admit you want to do some of those things while sober.”
“Kissing you was a mistake.”
No sooner had I said those words did Aoi straddle me and was pressing his lips against mine. I opened my mouth to protest and he slipped his skilled tongue inside my mouth. I didn’t even realize it when my eyes closed nor did I realize the kiss ended until I hear Aoi snickering, “You can close your mouth now Reita, you might give me idea if you leave it open.”
“Pervert.”
“Why because I am open about what I think and feel?” Aoi was still on top of me, he began to slip a hand under my shirt but before I could protest he spoke again. “Your excuse would be that I forced you into a kiss. And that you only opened your mouth to tell me to stop. Now logical thinking would let you know in a situation like that you keep your mouth closed. Tell me Reita, why do you pretend to hate me when you want me so badly?”
“But I don’t . . . ahhh Aoi-” Aoi ran his nails down my stomach.
“Don’t lie to me Reita baby. You want me, look your little friend is showing himself to me,” I looked down and to my horror I had gotten a hard on.
“Mmm . . . He isn’t so little,” I blushed at Aoi’s comment.
“Now Reita, you still haven’t answered my question. Why do you pretend to hate me? When your body is clearly telling me that you like it when I touch you?”
“You scare me. Your so cunning and always plotting something I can never trust you. Your personality is fucked up, not your looks.”
Aoi didn’t look offended. “Just as I suspected, your intimidated by me. You don’t like the fact that you have no control over me. And I’m the one who has all the control over you. That’s why you love Uruha so much? He’ll feed your macho ego. You’ll be the brave knight in shinning armor and he’ll be your damsel in distress? Reita trust me, there is nothing delicate about that boy.”
“I hate how you know everything.”
“You just hate that you can’t win a fight against me.”
“Get off of me.”
“Why we can have so much fun.”
“What will you get out of fucking me?”
“Would you let me fuck you?”
“Hell no.”
“I thought so.”
I rolled my eyes, “Fine then, what will you get out of me fucking you?”
“A piece of your soul.”
“You could have done this a week ago.”
“No, you were drunk. You have blamed alcohol. But if we fuck now it’ll be of your own free will. And even after you leave me for Uruha, you’ll always remember me. You’ll think of me at time when your with him.”
“What good will that do you?”
“I’ll have a piece of your soul, you’ll come back to me once things between you and him are bitter again.”
Before I could speak again he kissed me. No more words were said that night only moans and screams.
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Chapters: chapter 13/ ?
Genre: AU
Word Count: 3079
Ratings: PG 13 (will go up later)
Pairings/Characters: ReitaXUruha, Aoi/Reita (one sided), (others later on)
Synopsis: You know getting shot isn't really all that painful, its trying to breathe afterwards that hurts. I am no longer scared of death now. There is no life without love. My name is Akira Suzuki. I am 21 years old and by the time the clock strikes midnight I'll be dead.
Comments: It took me forever to write this chapter. Longest chapter I even written. It’s kinda weird cause it starts off with someone getting hurt but it ends with someone getting laid. Oh! And return of creepy Aoi.
I spent the next few days hiding in Aoi’s room. Aoi had managed to somehow bring my duffle bag into his room. So I didn’t leave his room. I just hid in there like a ghost. Uruha would come by everyday and knock softly on the door and call my name begging for forgiveness but I refused to listen to him instead I buried my head under the pillow and tried to block out his voice.
The problem I had with Uruha now that I was no longer angry at him, instead I was just heartbroken. The last time I felt this depress was when Reila died.
For a whole week I was on good terms with Aoi since he was letting me hide in his room. He was smart enough to just leave me alone. But we didn’t speak much I just laid in bed attempting to sleep away my life somewhat hoping that this was all a bad dream and when I woke up I would be eleven year old Akira Suzuki playing soccer with his loyal friend Kouyou Takashima.
Ruki had to wind up in the hospital before I spoke to Uruha again. I was busy sleeping one night when I woken up by Aoi, “Get up Ruki got hit by a car,” I jumped out of bed.
“Huh what happened?”
“Ruki’s damn dog was in the street and wouldn’t move when a car was coming so Ruki went out to go get her.”
“Is he alright?”
“I am not sure.”
When we got outside the ambulance still hadn’t arrived yet. Although I doubt I would be able to hear the sirens with the way Ruki’s mother was screaming. “No! Not my Takanori too!!!”
Most of the neighborhood was outside and crowding around to see what was going on.
I didn’t get a chance to see what Ruki looked like the ambulance finally decided to show up when I tried to get closer to my friend.
I knew there was no way in hell I was going to be able to visit Ruki within the next 48 hours so I just went inside the house. I had somehow lost Aoi so I returned to the house alone. I thought about returning to Aoi’s room and hiding under the pillow like I do every time I hear Uruha’s voice, but instead I sat on one of the living room couches and waiting for the other’s to return.
As fate would have it Uruha was the first one to return. He looked at me in shock and was quiet. It was the first time he saw me since he shot at me. I could tell he wanted to say something to me but was too afraid I would just go into hiding again. So I spoke first. “Do you know how Ruki is doing? Was he still alive?”
Uruha nodded his head. “He was alive but unconscious.”
“How did he look?”
“Well . . .bloody.” And that’s when Uruha started to cry.
I went over to him and held him, and that’s when I noticed the blood on him. “Uruha you were there when it happened?”
He nodded and cling to me, “Miyavi, Ruki and I were outside just hanging out like any other night. Ruki had Sabu-chan with him, you know how much he loves that dog,” Uruha began to cry harder. I held him and waited until he was more together before taking his hand, “Come on Uruha we have to get you all cleaned up,” I led him up stairs. Like Aoi’s room, Uruha’s room had a private bathroom connected to his. I turned on the shower, “Come on Uruha, you need to get cleaned up.” In better lighting I could see that Uruha even had blood in parts of his hair.
But Uruha didn’t respond to my words he just stood there still in shock crying softly. Since Uruha was wearing a button down shirt I began to un do the buttons. He didn’t bother to move me away. He allowed me to take off his shirt for him. He still wouldn’t speak or move though. So I began to work on taking off his jeans. But before I could take them off Uruha grabbed my wrist. I looked up startled.
“Reita . . . Do you forgive me?”
“No,” I answered honestly. “None of that now, Uruha we need to get you clean up. You’ll feel better after a shower.”
A fresh batch of tears began to run down Uruha’s face. I expected him to remain quiet but instead he began to get hysrtical. Before I knew it Uruha was on his knees, his arms wrapped around my waist hold me in place and his face buried in the lower half of my torso. I might not have been able to understand the words Uruha was saying with all the crying he was doing but he started screaming as he hugged me tight to him.
“Reita . . .I am so sorry. I don’t know what to do to make you forgive me. I don’t deserve you . . . But Reita-” Uruha had to stop speaking he was crying too hard. I struggled to get free from Uruha’s tight grip and too my surprise as soon as he felt me want to get away he let go.
Uruha looked back up at me. “I understand if you want to leave me. I’ve been so horrible to you. But Reita . . .” Once more Uruha stopped. “You can leave me . . . You should leave me. But please know I am so sorry. I never wanted to hurt you.”
I was kneeling now so that I could be level with Uruha. I held his face in my hands and I began to wipe away his tears. “I don’t know if I can believe you,” My tone wasn’t harsh or reprimanding. It was the opposite. “You killed someone . . . No not just someone but your friend’s sister and your friend’s girlfriend. You lied to me. And just a week ago you fired a gun at me. I can maybe somewhat forgive you for killing Reila, you was young and grew up around violence, but I cannot forgive you for trying to shoot me.”
“Reita I am so sorry, I never should have done any of those things but I don’t know how to think straight around you. I just want you with me and only me.”
“Uruha why are you so crazy about me? Why don’t you treat Ruki like this? Or Aoi? Miyavi? Why me?”
Uruha was quite. He didn’t even look up at me. I was about to give up hoping for an answer when he looked up at me. His hands went behind my head and he began to until my banana. I was confused for a moment as to why he was doing that but before I could ask Uruha kissed me. Uruha’s kiss was completely different from Aoi’s. While Aoi was a fierce kisser and knew what he was doing. Uruha’s kiss was gentle and I could tell
Uruha didn’t know what he was doing. He didn’t have any of Aoi’s confidence and was unsure of himself.
I didn’t push Uruha away nor did I encourage him. The kiss was simple and over very quickly. “I love you,” Uruha admitted softly.
I didn’t know how to react so I just stayed quite.
“Reita please say something . . . Anything.”
“Uruha you need to take a shower. You even have blood in your hair.” Since I wasn’t sure what to say about Uruha’s confession I decided not to say anything about it. This greatly upset Uruha.
“Reita not that . . . I just told you I love you! Say something about that! I don’t care if you call me a fag and tell never to touch you again just acknowledge the fact that I love you, please.”
I sighed. “Uruha you aimed a gun at me and shot me, you don’t love me. If you did you wouldn’t want me dead.”
“But I didn’t want you dead, I just didn’t want you to leave me! I only shot at your bag. Please . . . Reita please I am begging you, please forgive me. Reita I’ll do anything you’ll ask for if it’ll make your forgive me. Anything! You want me to go to the police? I swear I’ll admit to Reila’s murder.”
“No don’t do that, it’ll destroy Ruki if he found out his friend murdered his sister.”
“Then what do you want from me? Name it, I’ll do it! Anything Reita, anything! You mean so much to mean, if you want to leave me then leave me. I can’t stand to see you so miserable and know that I am the cause.”
I was quiet for a moment. “Uruha . . . There is nothing you can do to make me forgive you. What you did was unforgivable. It doesn’t matter if I love you or not, we can’t start a relationship.”
“Reita-”
“Uruha, enough. Stop crying and take a shower I am going to bed.” I stood up but before I could leave Uruha desperately grabbed me around my waist again.
“Akira!”
I looked at him and for a moment no one said anything before I spoke again, “Akira loved Kouyou. But those two people don’t exist anymore.” Uruha looked up as if I just ripped out his heart and shoved it down a blender.
I took advantage of state of shock and pulled my self free from his grasp and left for Aoi’s room.
When I entered Aoi’s room he was laying on his bed reading. That was no big surprise Aoi did have a large collection of books. I had decided to look at the books on his shelf one day but once I saw the Karma Sutra next to Mein Kampf I got scared and figured I would be better off just laying in bed. I think it was fact that he had those two books next to each other that scared me rather than the books themselves.
I looked at the book in Aoi’s hands. It was brown and one of the largest books I ever seen, “What are you reading?” He showed me the cover but I couldn’t understand the gold letters. “It’s in English?”
Aoi nodded his head, “ But I am sure you heard of it.”
I looked confused for a moment.
“It’s the Bible. I got the King James Version.”
“What are you doing reading that? Your not a Christian!”
“So? Aren’t you curious what 1.9 billion people believe in.”
“No . . . not really.”
Aoi laughed. “It’s really interesting. . . Well not all of it is but I really like the Book of Revelation.”
“What is that about?”
“The end of the world.”
I was speechless. Aoi just patted the empty spot on the bed next to him. Only then did I realize I had been standing the whole time. I went over wordlessly and laid down. Aoi had already placed the book on his bedside table. I was aware of the fact that Aoi was staring at me, I didn’t say anything at first but after a while it got annoying. “What?”
“That is a good question.”
“Please Aoi no games.”
“What are you going to do about Uruha?”
I hid my head under the pillow but Aoi snatched it away from me. “Well what are you going to do about him? He loves you. And you love him.”
I glared at him, “You don’t know what your talking about.”
“I know more than you think. I know you came to Uruha because you thought he was a like a fairy tale princess trapped in this house. And you being the chivalrous Knight you are, promised your fair maiden you would never leave him.”
I glared at Aoi.
“Uruha told me while talking about you. You wouldn’t know because you stayed away from the house the first month I lived here. He talked about you every single day.”
This surprised me. “I thought he had forgotten me.”
“Are you kidding me? He wouldn’t shut up about you. Ruki ended up throwing a boot at him once. Nearly every sentence out his mouth began with your name. That’s why I was so interested to meet you. By then I already figured out that you didn’t like me.”
“You’re a murderer.”
“And so is Uruha.”
“Your happy about that aren’t you?”
“I am very much so.”
I glared at him.
“Oh Reita what makes you happier, having Uruha smile in your face all the while lying to you? Or dealing with me who always tells the truth?”
“Uruha tells the truth.”
“Sometimes.”
“Well at least he doesn’t plot against me.”
“I don’t plot against you.”
“No just about me.”
“Well your not the easiest person to seduce.”
“What do you want from me?”
“Not much just your soul,” He smiled at me.
“You’re the Devil.”
“No I’m God, Uruha is Lucifer.”
I looked at him confused.
Aoi began to explain his logic to me. “God knows everything that is going to happen, good and bad. But he doesn’t stop anything from happening. He gives humans chances of course to redeem themselves but they have free will so the choice is theirs to make. I knew Uruha was going to kill Reila. I neither encouraged him nor discouraged. I allowed him to use his free will. Lucifer was God’s greatest angel. He was the most beautiful angel but grew jealous of God and leave a revolt against God. He of course lost and was cast down to hell with his followers. Uruha is my pupil. I been told a bunch of times before that I’m pretty, but seriously, put a skirt on Uruha and you wouldn’t be able to tell the difference. And Uruha’s jealously was his downfall.”
“So, God, what else do you think you know?”
“I know why you can’t forgive Uruha.”
“Why is that?”
“Because you want to hurt him.”
I was stunned into silence.
“You can get over the fact that he hurt you so badly, and you’ll only keep holding on to it. But if you hurt Uruha, then you two will be even. ’An eye for an eye.’”
“I couldn’t hurt Uruha.”
“Really? You think so? Are you willing to place a bet?”
“What makes you so sure of yourself.”
“It’s 10:46 right now, I bet you by time the clock strikes midnight you’ll have hurt Uruha.
“That’s physically impossible. I am not going back to Uruha’s room.”
Aoi laughed, “Who said anything about hurting him physically? He didn’t hurt you physically.”
“And how will I manage to hurt him.”
“I am sure you’ll figure something out.”
“He told me he loves me.”
“Are you surprised? Oh that’s right your still confused about your own sexuality.”
“I am not confused.”
“So your ready to admit your attracted to men?”
“I am-”
“Before you even deny it, lets not forget a week ago you were begging for me to fuck you.”
“I was drunk.”
“And? When your drunk you do things you want to do. It’s just you don’t want to admit you want to do some of those things while sober.”
“Kissing you was a mistake.”
No sooner had I said those words did Aoi straddle me and was pressing his lips against mine. I opened my mouth to protest and he slipped his skilled tongue inside my mouth. I didn’t even realize it when my eyes closed nor did I realize the kiss ended until I hear Aoi snickering, “You can close your mouth now Reita, you might give me idea if you leave it open.”
“Pervert.”
“Why because I am open about what I think and feel?” Aoi was still on top of me, he began to slip a hand under my shirt but before I could protest he spoke again. “Your excuse would be that I forced you into a kiss. And that you only opened your mouth to tell me to stop. Now logical thinking would let you know in a situation like that you keep your mouth closed. Tell me Reita, why do you pretend to hate me when you want me so badly?”
“But I don’t . . . ahhh Aoi-” Aoi ran his nails down my stomach.
“Don’t lie to me Reita baby. You want me, look your little friend is showing himself to me,” I looked down and to my horror I had gotten a hard on.
“Mmm . . . He isn’t so little,” I blushed at Aoi’s comment.
“Now Reita, you still haven’t answered my question. Why do you pretend to hate me? When your body is clearly telling me that you like it when I touch you?”
“You scare me. Your so cunning and always plotting something I can never trust you. Your personality is fucked up, not your looks.”
Aoi didn’t look offended. “Just as I suspected, your intimidated by me. You don’t like the fact that you have no control over me. And I’m the one who has all the control over you. That’s why you love Uruha so much? He’ll feed your macho ego. You’ll be the brave knight in shinning armor and he’ll be your damsel in distress? Reita trust me, there is nothing delicate about that boy.”
“I hate how you know everything.”
“You just hate that you can’t win a fight against me.”
“Get off of me.”
“Why we can have so much fun.”
“What will you get out of fucking me?”
“Would you let me fuck you?”
“Hell no.”
“I thought so.”
I rolled my eyes, “Fine then, what will you get out of me fucking you?”
“A piece of your soul.”
“You could have done this a week ago.”
“No, you were drunk. You have blamed alcohol. But if we fuck now it’ll be of your own free will. And even after you leave me for Uruha, you’ll always remember me. You’ll think of me at time when your with him.”
“What good will that do you?”
“I’ll have a piece of your soul, you’ll come back to me once things between you and him are bitter again.”
Before I could speak again he kissed me. No more words were said that night only moans and screams.
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