Surprise! A turkey day Journal Entry
I'm back!
Happy Turkey Day everyone. I must say, you have to love that fact that America, the almost greatest country in the world, has a whole holiday dedicated to eating food made by somebody else. And being thankful that those Injuns covered our asses and gave us some corn. Well I am always so thankful for my family for carrying on this same tradition of feeding me when I don't feed myself. That's the good ol American way.
I am really looking forward to seeing my family. I always get all kinds of sentimental around the holidays, they carry so many memories for me. For me, it is always the season of reunions, of reconcillation, of revisiting regrets. I always am making phone calls to those I have lost touch with, reuniting relationships gone awry, and constantly looking for a good place to find an extra hug or kiss. I can't help it, I am an only child. I need LOVE. (Apparently I am also LL Cool J. )
But take last night, I went to Michael's Pub and saw all those Hammond kids from high school---that was an experience. Actually, if everyone had been drunk like that when we were in high school it would have been much more exciting. I felt I was, you know, pretty popular... and social in high school---last night there was defintiely the "Erica McLaughlin! Hi!" and I was like "....Umm you, yea... Heeeey!" It's kind of like, wow, these were my friends, who I talked to everyday, and haven't spoken to since. Still, I wanted to get all of their numbers, I mean so I could call if I was ever bored and thought I didn't have any friends, I mean so we could pretend we were cheerleaders again and stuff like that. I am one of those people who is very very different now. At least, I am suprised at how I have changed. The holidays are just a time that always reminds me of how it used to be.
Yea and how about it SNOWED last night! I mean covered the ground, it was everywhere! Come on now, I made it all the way to Seattle with like no rain or anything, and I come home to Maryland and it is SNOWING! Ugh, this place is killing me. However, I must admit I got a little pang deep down when I saw that snow. It reminded of all things all at once. Christmas trees, visits, traveling, old coats, well though out presents, being in love. Hot Chocolate. Bring on the hot chocolate! I have to bust out the kettle. What ya'll know about the kettle?
Yes, I am thankful for more than corn and hot chocolate and snow. Something else that always happens around this time is that I start dreaming again: which involves being thankful for all that I have, but always lusting for soemthing more, something larger. Things are great, I have nothing to offer but gratitude for my current luck. I have a fun job that is paying me well, I have really great friends, I am producing my own play (mine! it's really happening!), I had a wonderful Seattle visit and I am ready to check out more schools, more programs, ready to do more. I love my life. But its cold outside, and boring at home, and my mind has time to wander. Time to dream. I am ready for something else, something bigger, something beyond the horizon.
So I am thankful that the world is not flat. I am thankful we have found the New World. I hope I can move forward into my own New World and produce my own great Harvest.
I just hope the corn keeps coming.
Happy Turkey Day everyone. I must say, you have to love that fact that America, the almost greatest country in the world, has a whole holiday dedicated to eating food made by somebody else. And being thankful that those Injuns covered our asses and gave us some corn. Well I am always so thankful for my family for carrying on this same tradition of feeding me when I don't feed myself. That's the good ol American way.
I am really looking forward to seeing my family. I always get all kinds of sentimental around the holidays, they carry so many memories for me. For me, it is always the season of reunions, of reconcillation, of revisiting regrets. I always am making phone calls to those I have lost touch with, reuniting relationships gone awry, and constantly looking for a good place to find an extra hug or kiss. I can't help it, I am an only child. I need LOVE. (Apparently I am also LL Cool J. )
But take last night, I went to Michael's Pub and saw all those Hammond kids from high school---that was an experience. Actually, if everyone had been drunk like that when we were in high school it would have been much more exciting. I felt I was, you know, pretty popular... and social in high school---last night there was defintiely the "Erica McLaughlin! Hi!" and I was like "....Umm you, yea... Heeeey!" It's kind of like, wow, these were my friends, who I talked to everyday, and haven't spoken to since. Still, I wanted to get all of their numbers, I mean so I could call if I was ever bored and thought I didn't have any friends, I mean so we could pretend we were cheerleaders again and stuff like that. I am one of those people who is very very different now. At least, I am suprised at how I have changed. The holidays are just a time that always reminds me of how it used to be.
Yea and how about it SNOWED last night! I mean covered the ground, it was everywhere! Come on now, I made it all the way to Seattle with like no rain or anything, and I come home to Maryland and it is SNOWING! Ugh, this place is killing me. However, I must admit I got a little pang deep down when I saw that snow. It reminded of all things all at once. Christmas trees, visits, traveling, old coats, well though out presents, being in love. Hot Chocolate. Bring on the hot chocolate! I have to bust out the kettle. What ya'll know about the kettle?
Yes, I am thankful for more than corn and hot chocolate and snow. Something else that always happens around this time is that I start dreaming again: which involves being thankful for all that I have, but always lusting for soemthing more, something larger. Things are great, I have nothing to offer but gratitude for my current luck. I have a fun job that is paying me well, I have really great friends, I am producing my own play (mine! it's really happening!), I had a wonderful Seattle visit and I am ready to check out more schools, more programs, ready to do more. I love my life. But its cold outside, and boring at home, and my mind has time to wander. Time to dream. I am ready for something else, something bigger, something beyond the horizon.
So I am thankful that the world is not flat. I am thankful we have found the New World. I hope I can move forward into my own New World and produce my own great Harvest.
I just hope the corn keeps coming.