I need to find a boyfriend.

[ladymeltintalle]

Or a girlfriend. Or just maybe another friend. I want more out of life. Everyone around here is moody and never wants to do anything and I'm just done with it. I want someone that's never tired of seeing me. Or acts like my company is a chore. I'm a needy woman, god damn it. Appreciate me!

The stupid thing is, I have no idea where to look for these kind of things. Certainly not online. I couldn't meet someone like that, where the goal is already a relationship, so the whole first meeting is all about calculating if you could fuck them or not. I just want to meet a nice person randomly. Why is that so hard to ask?

I suppose the problem isn't meeting people. I meet plenty of people I'd date all the time. I just don't meet anyone that's mutually interested. And if they were, I'd have no way of knowing because I'd just assume they were being nice out of habit or something. But I'm such an awkward fruitcake, I could never imagine anyone being totally captivated by me. Except maybe like when you can't look away from a car accident or something. Like "Oh you poor, weird, unfortunate girl. Let me be nice to make your life less pathetic."

tl;dr: Somebody find me a date.