Looking for angels.
I keep wondering where my life is going. I smiled and thought of 4 years ago. Of sam, and everyone sitting at gary's house at 3am all laughing. I realized that is what I want. I don't want to hurt people I want to be with friends. I want to work with children and have a good job. I am getting one within the next month. I want to go out with friends and not have to worry about my life. I don't want to be shoved back into situations where my morals and life are put in jeopordy. I want a normal life. Well as normal as my life ever can be. I called the boys a few nights ago and told them to leave me again until they grow up or I can handle them again. They agreed. I think they are jealous that I have gotten out well at least george is but he won't leave without gary and gary is to stubborn to see anything but his own way. But I am finially free. I am sooo happy in this moment. Soon I'll think about college, money, work, and relationships but for these few moments I am perfectly happy with myself. No hatred just happy.