Friday the 13th, eh?
I swear.. I didn't realize it was the 13th until 6th period. Normally, when I think "oh dear, it's Friday the 13th.. bad luck! blah blah.." Nothing happens. However, today was a different case.
Yesterday, Johnny called me his "faithful puppy." What the fuck. I take time out of my day to meet up with him before 1st period, and after 2nd because he's my friend and that's the only time I see him. He thinks it's a game. What is this, the Freshman Olympics? I don't play games like that! Today, I nodded a bit to him before 1st, then turned around and talked to Aly. After 2nd, I met up with Jimmy, and later saw poor Johnny walking alone. I snickered to myself at that pathetic sight. If he doesn't want to talk to me, fine. Oh, and get this.. he asked my brother where I was, and why I hadn't talked to him. HAH. After school, I saw him in the band hall, casually approached and said "Hey Johnny." He looked at me, and played to be disgusted. I stood there, looking at this girl who had a look of shock on her face. I didn't say anything.. he hugged me and said "Oh, if I have to.." Ugh, biatch. I said "I'm going now" and walked away, then flashed the deuce. As my friend Lynn said today, Dick=Dumb. End of story.
In 1st period, read another play. We read No Exit the past two days, and The Respectable Prostitute today. Both are bizarre. When my friend Juan was reading today, he said "100% Mexican *pause* American" instead of "100% American." That cracked us up. He is Mexican and it just was so random. XD In 2nd period, we discussed guys and girls. Why guys hold their emotions in and such.. it was on Oprah. Pretty interesting conversation. 3rd wasn't too bad.. just reviewing for the semester exam in Calc. 4th was the bearer of bad luck. I made such an ass of myself... *sighs* We had to play Region Band cuts since tryouts are tomorrow. Meredith, the contrabass clarinet player who has a grudge against me, chose her favorite cut for me to play. Yeah, I haven't practiced in a while, so I played it like shit. I had a good sound, but I had so many fumbled notes and rhythms in the beginning and towards the end. People clapped for me, but I felt it was a pity cheer. I almost cried. The tears kept almost coming. I had embarrassed myself in front of my peers, Meredith was probably seething because I messed up her cut.. and... I just wanted to get out of there. Everyone else played better than me.. My fault that I don't practice, but damn it.. ><
I eventually isolated myself in the copy room and talked to LaRhonda.. she started saying she was going to steal the person I wanted to take to prom. She knew that he was my best friend, and she was just drilling annoyance into me. She kept it up in 5th period.. I told her she was making me more down than I was. She apologized.
If I was screwed up enough, I'd take my pellet gun and just shoot all of these annoying, BS people in the face or something. Argh. =\
Things are better now.. but I'm not 100%. I'm in the same boat as kamiten as far as loneliness goes, and school's going to drive me off the cliff.
Hope you guys are good! O.o *hugs* Take care
Yesterday, Johnny called me his "faithful puppy." What the fuck. I take time out of my day to meet up with him before 1st period, and after 2nd because he's my friend and that's the only time I see him. He thinks it's a game. What is this, the Freshman Olympics? I don't play games like that! Today, I nodded a bit to him before 1st, then turned around and talked to Aly. After 2nd, I met up with Jimmy, and later saw poor Johnny walking alone. I snickered to myself at that pathetic sight. If he doesn't want to talk to me, fine. Oh, and get this.. he asked my brother where I was, and why I hadn't talked to him. HAH. After school, I saw him in the band hall, casually approached and said "Hey Johnny." He looked at me, and played to be disgusted. I stood there, looking at this girl who had a look of shock on her face. I didn't say anything.. he hugged me and said "Oh, if I have to.." Ugh, biatch. I said "I'm going now" and walked away, then flashed the deuce. As my friend Lynn said today, Dick=Dumb. End of story.
In 1st period, read another play. We read No Exit the past two days, and The Respectable Prostitute today. Both are bizarre. When my friend Juan was reading today, he said "100% Mexican *pause* American" instead of "100% American." That cracked us up. He is Mexican and it just was so random. XD In 2nd period, we discussed guys and girls. Why guys hold their emotions in and such.. it was on Oprah. Pretty interesting conversation. 3rd wasn't too bad.. just reviewing for the semester exam in Calc. 4th was the bearer of bad luck. I made such an ass of myself... *sighs* We had to play Region Band cuts since tryouts are tomorrow. Meredith, the contrabass clarinet player who has a grudge against me, chose her favorite cut for me to play. Yeah, I haven't practiced in a while, so I played it like shit. I had a good sound, but I had so many fumbled notes and rhythms in the beginning and towards the end. People clapped for me, but I felt it was a pity cheer. I almost cried. The tears kept almost coming. I had embarrassed myself in front of my peers, Meredith was probably seething because I messed up her cut.. and... I just wanted to get out of there. Everyone else played better than me.. My fault that I don't practice, but damn it.. ><
I eventually isolated myself in the copy room and talked to LaRhonda.. she started saying she was going to steal the person I wanted to take to prom. She knew that he was my best friend, and she was just drilling annoyance into me. She kept it up in 5th period.. I told her she was making me more down than I was. She apologized.
If I was screwed up enough, I'd take my pellet gun and just shoot all of these annoying, BS people in the face or something. Argh. =\
Things are better now.. but I'm not 100%. I'm in the same boat as kamiten as far as loneliness goes, and school's going to drive me off the cliff.
Hope you guys are good! O.o *hugs* Take care