Deep Thoughts Thirty Day Challenge -- Day Twenty Nine
29. If you could be doing the same things you do now, only in your own way, how would a normal day in your life go?
That's a very good question. I think I'd try to wake up a little earlier, after getting to bed earlier, and maybe putting on a movie that isn't likely to weird me out while I'm trying to get to sleep. Because I seem to be doing that a lot. I've been trying to use the Cinema Snob's videos if only to sleep (because he has the sort of voice that puts you at ease. Also, it's pretty lovely to listen to), but while the Cinema Snob is awesome, some of the stuff he covers can kind of provide fuel for the strange dreams. So maybe I really need to collect my comfort movies, do my relaxation exercises, collect my comfort music and stuff like that. Then I'd get up, of course, get dressed and brush my hair and my teeth so I don't look like a cavewoman, eat healthier (strawberries with my breakfast, for instance), get to writing more, less Tumblr (because Tumblr cuts into my writing time, and occasionally my sanity considering that the majority of the drama that kind of wore away at my sanity last year was there and Twitter, mostly because hardly anyone posts on LJ anymore. Tumblr is generally awesome, but yeah, moderation in all things), concentrate more on schoolwork and less on stupid bullshit things that shouldn't really bother me that much because really, write in my planner more, take notes more, get back into stuff like video games and other things I used to love, read more of DRACULA (because I'm reading that book, which is fantastic), learn more about myself, learn more about stuff like the matter of social justice and what it means, learn more about human nature, leave the house more (because the problem as a college student is that you really don't leave the house much. You're mostly stuck at home doing things, which isn't always good for the sanity because...well, we all need a little fresh air. For all I love my house, I could definitely use more fresh air.
And perhaps I could stop worrying about what other people think in general, whether it be of me or things I like or stuff like that. I've really worried so much about pissing people off just because of whatever opinions I have, I've worried about hurting people, I've worried about starting a flame war, I've worried about admitting I like something because I worry about getting pulverized for it, I've worried just because my stance on something seems a little muddled (because that's the problem with people. They assume that things are black and white, that everything's perfectly clear, when in fact, things rarely are. There are plenty of things you have to consider in things, but the problem is, not everyone just bothers to ask questions and debate this from both sides, never mind that very few issues are clear-cut. If they were, life would be easier, but the point isn't really to be clear-cut), I worry about no one caring what I have to say...I just worry so much about other people's opinions and just this once, I want to be able to just not give a shit about them and talk about whatever I want to talk about. Say what I want. And not worry whenever someone decides to pulverize me for it based on their own warped views of how things should be. So really, what I want to do is just be emotionally healthier as well as physically healthier. That's the best I can hope for.
30. Look back on this last month and talk about it.
That's a very good question. I think I'd try to wake up a little earlier, after getting to bed earlier, and maybe putting on a movie that isn't likely to weird me out while I'm trying to get to sleep. Because I seem to be doing that a lot. I've been trying to use the Cinema Snob's videos if only to sleep (because he has the sort of voice that puts you at ease. Also, it's pretty lovely to listen to), but while the Cinema Snob is awesome, some of the stuff he covers can kind of provide fuel for the strange dreams. So maybe I really need to collect my comfort movies, do my relaxation exercises, collect my comfort music and stuff like that. Then I'd get up, of course, get dressed and brush my hair and my teeth so I don't look like a cavewoman, eat healthier (strawberries with my breakfast, for instance), get to writing more, less Tumblr (because Tumblr cuts into my writing time, and occasionally my sanity considering that the majority of the drama that kind of wore away at my sanity last year was there and Twitter, mostly because hardly anyone posts on LJ anymore. Tumblr is generally awesome, but yeah, moderation in all things), concentrate more on schoolwork and less on stupid bullshit things that shouldn't really bother me that much because really, write in my planner more, take notes more, get back into stuff like video games and other things I used to love, read more of DRACULA (because I'm reading that book, which is fantastic), learn more about myself, learn more about stuff like the matter of social justice and what it means, learn more about human nature, leave the house more (because the problem as a college student is that you really don't leave the house much. You're mostly stuck at home doing things, which isn't always good for the sanity because...well, we all need a little fresh air. For all I love my house, I could definitely use more fresh air.
And perhaps I could stop worrying about what other people think in general, whether it be of me or things I like or stuff like that. I've really worried so much about pissing people off just because of whatever opinions I have, I've worried about hurting people, I've worried about starting a flame war, I've worried about admitting I like something because I worry about getting pulverized for it, I've worried just because my stance on something seems a little muddled (because that's the problem with people. They assume that things are black and white, that everything's perfectly clear, when in fact, things rarely are. There are plenty of things you have to consider in things, but the problem is, not everyone just bothers to ask questions and debate this from both sides, never mind that very few issues are clear-cut. If they were, life would be easier, but the point isn't really to be clear-cut), I worry about no one caring what I have to say...I just worry so much about other people's opinions and just this once, I want to be able to just not give a shit about them and talk about whatever I want to talk about. Say what I want. And not worry whenever someone decides to pulverize me for it based on their own warped views of how things should be. So really, what I want to do is just be emotionally healthier as well as physically healthier. That's the best I can hope for.
30. Look back on this last month and talk about it.