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I think one of the most notorious phrases in the history of LJ is "it's been forever since my last post"... Well it hasn't been forever, but its definitely been a while.
I've been thinking about posting on here more. Particularly since I now live by myself. I've noticed that I want to tell people about what's going on with me, but I've been i incredibly busy, and so have my friends. So I thought I'd write on here.
I wouldn't know where to start other than my emotional state is quite different since my last post. I'm me again. Fully and completely. Yeah, I still have my moments, but they are very few and far between. Wednesday was a blast with the Beltaine festival and handfasting. It was so exciting to watch Anna and her Chris get handfasted. :)
Interesting thing happened Saturday night related to this. I was visiting my Brian and we were watching the hockey semi-finals. Danie texts me asking if I could be a back up for the handfasting, I first explained handfasting to Brian and then asked him if he would mind. His response was completely him: "I wouldn't mind getting handfasted, just not with so many people". I don't know why but his absolute acceptance of the idea of a handfasting took me back a little. I guess it goes back to me prepping for the moment when Brian admits to me that even though he likes me, he was just with me till he found something better. Him liking the idea of the handfasting, is a good jab that he really does want me in his life for a long time. Not only that, but that he wants me in his life as his girlfriend, perhaps even more than that.
I've been silently giddy about it since then.
^_^
I've been thinking about posting on here more. Particularly since I now live by myself. I've noticed that I want to tell people about what's going on with me, but I've been i incredibly busy, and so have my friends. So I thought I'd write on here.
I wouldn't know where to start other than my emotional state is quite different since my last post. I'm me again. Fully and completely. Yeah, I still have my moments, but they are very few and far between. Wednesday was a blast with the Beltaine festival and handfasting. It was so exciting to watch Anna and her Chris get handfasted. :)
Interesting thing happened Saturday night related to this. I was visiting my Brian and we were watching the hockey semi-finals. Danie texts me asking if I could be a back up for the handfasting, I first explained handfasting to Brian and then asked him if he would mind. His response was completely him: "I wouldn't mind getting handfasted, just not with so many people". I don't know why but his absolute acceptance of the idea of a handfasting took me back a little. I guess it goes back to me prepping for the moment when Brian admits to me that even though he likes me, he was just with me till he found something better. Him liking the idea of the handfasting, is a good jab that he really does want me in his life for a long time. Not only that, but that he wants me in his life as his girlfriend, perhaps even more than that.
I've been silently giddy about it since then.
^_^