One more thing
I know most normal moms dont get "breaks" from their kids but for the last 8yrs of divorce--I HAVE>..and I dont get a break when it comes to faire season....I have the kids all 5 wknds....NO BREAKS....yes this does put a crimp into my PLAYTIME....and Ive got a couple guys Im seeing lately and no wknd time to enjoy them! ugh....I told my ex today that I wanted to go back to the normal kid schedule we had before we changed things last Xmas....I NEED my Weds/THRS breaks....having kids 2 days or 5 days total....omg....my ex CANNOT DIE! the older the kids get the more I savor my solo time....omg....
On another note....one of the guys Im seeing...."Danny"...none of you know him...Ive known him since I was 16yrs old...in my "old life"...of going to church, etc....he was shy back then, a tad bit dumpy...but SUCH a nice guy you wouldnt believe!....well....after kids & divorces....we found each other again....I began cutting his hair...I knew instantly that he was "into me"...but he kept saying he didnt want things to get physical between us becuz if things went sour then he'd lose his hairstylist....I told him he was being silly...that I STILL cut guys hair that I had "had a thing" with without any issues....he had recently broken up with a girl he had been with for 2yrs....so we started to just "go out as friends"...now this guy is SUCH a gentleman...omg...Im talkin opening doors, pulling out chairs, helping me on and off with my jacket etc.....not to mention he makes a fantastic living....so when we go out...WE GO OUT!!!...and Im treated like a total princess....it's fun....well after about 4 dates, he asked me if I really could have a 'casual thing" and still be cool with him....I told him yes....but i asked if HE COULD? he jumped at the chance and we've been doin good ever since...he knows Im not ready for anything committed....he isnt "Poly-minded" but he also knows he too isnt ready to committ as well....BUT...he does play with "when we get married someday, how much he is going to take care of me"..that kinda talk....and I swear if I said yes, he'd marry me tomorrow...but Im not ready..I dont want it..marriage anytime soon...and if/when I am ready, Im not sure Im going to want anything TRADITIONAL...Im liking being able to see more than one man....I like different parts of each of the men Im seeing....I love so many parts of Danny, but I also love certain parts of the other men too.....the other men are very cool with how things are with us right now...no pressure, NO JEALOUSY, no drama.....but of all of them....Danny truly treats me the best....but there is no spark there.....he is nice looking, tall 6'2, burly, very manly....and soo kind, sweet, caring, nurturing.....I just dont know....I used to think that if I did marry again, it'd be for $$$....but now that $$$ is on the table...Im not sure if that IS all I want....I still want there to be that hot sizzle, that hair grabbing lust-fest....and he isnt that one....I enjoy him, he enjoys me...but a future with him? he isnt a faire guy..NOT that faire is a pre-requisite....but he says he is possessive....you all KNOW that wont work when Im at faire....possessive is one step away from jealousy....and Ive been there, done that.....sooo dont wanna do that again.....so there ya have it....give me your thoughts on this one...
On another note....one of the guys Im seeing...."Danny"...none of you know him...Ive known him since I was 16yrs old...in my "old life"...of going to church, etc....he was shy back then, a tad bit dumpy...but SUCH a nice guy you wouldnt believe!....well....after kids & divorces....we found each other again....I began cutting his hair...I knew instantly that he was "into me"...but he kept saying he didnt want things to get physical between us becuz if things went sour then he'd lose his hairstylist....I told him he was being silly...that I STILL cut guys hair that I had "had a thing" with without any issues....he had recently broken up with a girl he had been with for 2yrs....so we started to just "go out as friends"...now this guy is SUCH a gentleman...omg...Im talkin opening doors, pulling out chairs, helping me on and off with my jacket etc.....not to mention he makes a fantastic living....so when we go out...WE GO OUT!!!...and Im treated like a total princess....it's fun....well after about 4 dates, he asked me if I really could have a 'casual thing" and still be cool with him....I told him yes....but i asked if HE COULD? he jumped at the chance and we've been doin good ever since...he knows Im not ready for anything committed....he isnt "Poly-minded" but he also knows he too isnt ready to committ as well....BUT...he does play with "when we get married someday, how much he is going to take care of me"..that kinda talk....and I swear if I said yes, he'd marry me tomorrow...but Im not ready..I dont want it..marriage anytime soon...and if/when I am ready, Im not sure Im going to want anything TRADITIONAL...Im liking being able to see more than one man....I like different parts of each of the men Im seeing....I love so many parts of Danny, but I also love certain parts of the other men too.....the other men are very cool with how things are with us right now...no pressure, NO JEALOUSY, no drama.....but of all of them....Danny truly treats me the best....but there is no spark there.....he is nice looking, tall 6'2, burly, very manly....and soo kind, sweet, caring, nurturing.....I just dont know....I used to think that if I did marry again, it'd be for $$$....but now that $$$ is on the table...Im not sure if that IS all I want....I still want there to be that hot sizzle, that hair grabbing lust-fest....and he isnt that one....I enjoy him, he enjoys me...but a future with him? he isnt a faire guy..NOT that faire is a pre-requisite....but he says he is possessive....you all KNOW that wont work when Im at faire....possessive is one step away from jealousy....and Ive been there, done that.....sooo dont wanna do that again.....so there ya have it....give me your thoughts on this one...