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Yesterday I got a note from "Classmates.com" telling me I had email waiting.....usually I just delete this crap since I dont even have an account with them...but something told me to go to it and check it out....well dear god...there was an email on there that had been sent to me a YEAR AGO! omg..!!!...from a guy I used to date before I met idiot-boy.....this guy & I had met back in JrHigh, dated....then lost touch after high school...he then found me again on that same site years later...we hooked up...got something going....he had been in the army for 20yrs..did time in Irag during Gulf War.....he is full blooded GERMAN so he was used for his linquistics over in GERMANY many times...needless to say the WAR fucked his head up and he was a massive alcoholic....pretty much suicidal at many times.....he had been seeing me, along with another girl...and he decided to marry the girl....then POOF he was just gone....I had no clue as to what happend to him....i had heard thru the grapevine that he DID marry that girl but nothing more than that.....go figure?...I had to deal with the kids asking me what had happend to "Mr Chris" for at least 2yrs before they quit asking....so this new email tells me that he had moved to MONTANA!! bought himself 15acres of land.....and how sorry he was for what he says of taking advantage of me...me letting him into my life just wasnt fair...not to me or my kids and he was sorry and needed to make amends....and he wanted me to email him when I had the chance.....WELL>...I went one better....he listed the city in Montana so I looked his ass up and there ya go....got his phone number and left him a message!....I also called him late last nite....we talked for over an hour! turns out he was more messed up than even I knew...he didnt marry that chick...he up and went to Montana and tossed his drunk ass into rehab!...WOW.....after he cleaned up he then got his shit together....bought land and a huge house....moved his mom there with him...never married....goes to AA meetings, keeps busy....he HAD come into a large sum of money when his father died and has invested well....Im talking BILLIONS here people....but when he was still living here, the money didnt make him happy at all...all it did was make him leary about people coming into his life and why....lots of roaches come out of the wood work when you all the sudden get money and damn they sure did...relatives he never even KNEW he had came and got in touch with him....so he got all bitter for quite some time....but our talk was good last nite....he read me his AA stuff and gave me the most sincere apology Ive ever heard and yes I accepted.....he is still a narcissistic asshole but dear god I had a THING for this guy....the most gorgeous piercing light blue eyes you have ever seen....cocky, arrogant bastard of a guy....and I am able to say that Im happy to even hear his voice...he is well....he is safe....he is on 15 acres of land in a very WHITE part of our country (he never did well living among a mixed amount of people...yes...he is racist to boot)....but he now is letting all that go....knowing he isnt any better than anyone else....he is lonely, I hear it in his voice....but I dont know if he will ever be ready to have a woman in his life....completely in his life....he has his mother living with him..(I give him credit here on this one...)...the time I did have with him was mostly enjoyable....many nites of shooting pool, him trying to teach me chess....(never did get it)...Id love to see him again...but there is no way...I dont have the cash to get my booty to his end of the map and as wealthy as he is....I doubt he is willing to part with a nickel of it to fly me to see him...go figure?...but ya never know....time will tell....I miss his blue blue eyes and the twinkle his wink could give me....sigh sigh....