Anxiety verses Paranoia
It is bad enough that I know my brain is out to ruin my life half the time. It gets worse when the world prove my dysfunctional brain right. Since I was a child I was told that people did not like me I was too strange. Yeah I know kids are cruel. But over time this became a voice in the back of my head, and thanks to others it has become stronger. Now you can tell me all you want that I am the one giving the negative ninny power but it is hard to ignore the evidence over time. Now I did not become the crack whore that people said I was going to become if I did not get over my self but I am not sure that I am really better.