Progress
In my last post I mentioned the beginnings of my getting over water. I believe I have overcome some boundaries and made quite a few steps in the right direction.
I have joined a gym and due to the heel spurs cant walk the treadmill like I used to for my cardio. So I found another route... swimming. Yes swimming. I did only 2 laps and was spent. I went another after resting and then hit the spa. They call it a spa, I call it a huge hot tub for 18 with a waterfall. Ohhhh the waterfall feels sooooo nice. :D
Now I have been excited to get to the gym and get into the WATER!!! Yay me!!
The last weekend with the daughter went really well. No big fights. So another huge step made there.
I have a Dr (read shrink) appointment set for December 14th, and will so will be well on my way to getting my meds straightened out. I find I have been well out of my head space for a while now and that my meds just arent cutting it. I have had violent mood swings, not just the regular swings I have had, but severely violent ones. I am on the list for a counselor as well. They say 6-8 weeks on that. I think it will be longer because I need to see one that has night time appointments. But 6 weeks is up in December so hopefully by the new year I will have a counselor too.
Due to the mood swings I have been trying to keep more to myself more. I am now trying to get back out. I went to Amtgard last weekend and had fun. I will be going again not this weekend but next. I feel like I may be finally coming out of my funk. Not fully, but enough I am willing to venture out into the world of the living again. Some say that it isnt good to pull away from people when your not doing well, but when I dont I loose friends. Sucks but its true. I am just hard to deal with when in full swing mode.
Wow I think I'm all talked out for now. LOL
I have joined a gym and due to the heel spurs cant walk the treadmill like I used to for my cardio. So I found another route... swimming. Yes swimming. I did only 2 laps and was spent. I went another after resting and then hit the spa. They call it a spa, I call it a huge hot tub for 18 with a waterfall. Ohhhh the waterfall feels sooooo nice. :D
Now I have been excited to get to the gym and get into the WATER!!! Yay me!!
The last weekend with the daughter went really well. No big fights. So another huge step made there.
I have a Dr (read shrink) appointment set for December 14th, and will so will be well on my way to getting my meds straightened out. I find I have been well out of my head space for a while now and that my meds just arent cutting it. I have had violent mood swings, not just the regular swings I have had, but severely violent ones. I am on the list for a counselor as well. They say 6-8 weeks on that. I think it will be longer because I need to see one that has night time appointments. But 6 weeks is up in December so hopefully by the new year I will have a counselor too.
Due to the mood swings I have been trying to keep more to myself more. I am now trying to get back out. I went to Amtgard last weekend and had fun. I will be going again not this weekend but next. I feel like I may be finally coming out of my funk. Not fully, but enough I am willing to venture out into the world of the living again. Some say that it isnt good to pull away from people when your not doing well, but when I dont I loose friends. Sucks but its true. I am just hard to deal with when in full swing mode.
Wow I think I'm all talked out for now. LOL