Dream
Well, shit.
I dreamed that Ian & I and a couple friends of ours (and their kid) were on a vacation. He & I were being flirty & fun, and I was going to join him in the shower. He said something about disappointing me and I remembered a dream I'd had that he had died by suicide. As I went to join him, he got out, and I decided not to say, "No, I have no expectations of this going anywhere permanent, just don't do something like kill yourself and break my heart."
It hurt to wake up from that one.
Stupid dream.