So much for thinking...
I thought I was doing pretty well with this whole monstrous cyst thing and having to have surgery in the nr future, recovery, 6 wks off work, etc. I thought my research into the various ovarian cysts and the Dr's words that a cystadenoma would come to her mind considering how fast and large my cyst is were making me relatively calm. I guess not.
I was feeling mildly jittery last night after a cuppa tea for a scratchy throat. I blew it off as caffeine at night and took some pulls of the apple/honey cider K had. The jittery feeling deep inside me persisted even though I was feeling soooo incredibly tired this morning. It was all I could do to drag my butt out of bed. Yet I still had the jitters inside. I finally realized on my way to work that it was classic panic/anxiety symptoms. *rolls eyes* Duh. It's been awhile since I've had this symptom, so I guess a little problem of recognition is excusable... Maybe.
I got to work and kept thinking about my symptoms because I kept feeling that shaking inside me. Hmm... Time to pop a half a klonopin so I can feel less self conscious and agitated. It helped w/in 30 min and I felt much better. I could relax and not get uptight while working with a rather strange/anxious young pt.
A very disturbing dream last night about me at work. That wasn't a problem, the problem was the volunteers who were trying to do the instrument gal's job and just dragging out boxes and boxes of crap instead of what I needed to work. No braces, no wires, no bonding materials, nothing. Plenty of power tools and tool boxes for crescent wrenches, but nothing of use to me. I kept having to leave my pt to go looking for something while everyone else just stood or sat around. Over at least 6 departures from my pt to look around the office and dig up supplies, I finally found what I was looking for and got going. Gah!
Class tomorrow night! It's been awhile. I'm going to get home, shower, change, munch on something and then run back to town for class. (must remember laptop since I type better than write) From class, run over to the 22 for the midnight line up for Twilight.