Crazy ideas!
You know I really should write in this journal every day or every other day. My feelings and goals and actions change so often now. I feel like I have a lot of crazy things that I want. One day I get an idea, or someone plants the idea in my head, and I spend time thinking of how to make it happen. Sometimes I decided it is a little more impossible than I would like it to be and I let it go. Somethings always come back around and I start thinking about them again. Taking it at a new angle thinking about things I didnt think of the first time around. I try to always remind myself that things worth having/doing are not always easy. Thats what makes it worth it. If it were easy everyone would be doing it and then it really wouldnt be a goal now would it!
Sometimes I feel bad for my mum. She is always the one I talk to about my ideas. My mum is the absolute greatest in the world because no matter what crazy idea I have come up with she never says anything negative. She says things like "well lets think about this now" or " well have you thought about this" and " have you taken this in to consideration in your plan?" She tells me "just do the research." Some times I have called my mum in tears telling her how miserably my plan had failed. Sometime I call her and tell her how much damn fun I am having, but she is always there for me. She never once has said "I told you so." She says "you had it all planned out its just too bad." She also says things like "how can I help." My mum is the greatest!
I have more new plans in my head. My life is a crazy journey. Not crazy enough to write a good novel but crazy enough to keep me striving for new things. Keeps me learning. Lately I have been sooo excited for the friends I have in my life right now. I still seem to find times when I feel lonely, but then my friends have been right there when I just pick up my phone. I am grateful for all the people I have met lately and all the people who have come back into my life.
I feel a swirl of emotions running up and down my body.
Sometimes I feel bad for my mum. She is always the one I talk to about my ideas. My mum is the absolute greatest in the world because no matter what crazy idea I have come up with she never says anything negative. She says things like "well lets think about this now" or " well have you thought about this" and " have you taken this in to consideration in your plan?" She tells me "just do the research." Some times I have called my mum in tears telling her how miserably my plan had failed. Sometime I call her and tell her how much damn fun I am having, but she is always there for me. She never once has said "I told you so." She says "you had it all planned out its just too bad." She also says things like "how can I help." My mum is the greatest!
I have more new plans in my head. My life is a crazy journey. Not crazy enough to write a good novel but crazy enough to keep me striving for new things. Keeps me learning. Lately I have been sooo excited for the friends I have in my life right now. I still seem to find times when I feel lonely, but then my friends have been right there when I just pick up my phone. I am grateful for all the people I have met lately and all the people who have come back into my life.
I feel a swirl of emotions running up and down my body.