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Even if I'm feeling better than yesterday, I'm still pretty annoyed with people. And in some cases, I'm a little mad at myself.
Ever since I lost my job, I am not around other people and it bugs me because I hate living in this town and I had been finding myself wanting to move away. Of course, I can't because of this job problem.
The point is, I really am happy I am involved with the Ren Faire, I'm hoping I can meet people who create and to form sincere friendships with them. Everyone knows I don't want friendship for superficial reasons...I'm not that kind of person. (Of course, I'm also upset that I've tried to offer my performing to some people online who are in the metropolitan area who make good videos, but they never answered back. Where am I to find these things and NOT have to go to the filthy underbelly that is craigslist?)
That does bring me to the fact I feel like I'm doing these things alone. I don't know how to edit videos, so that's why it's all single camera in one take with me. As well as the fact I don't have anyone to do these with. So really, I AM doing it alone.
I need to stop being shy...it might be one of the biggest reasons I'm not getting what I want out of life. Still, what am I going to in this downtime? It's just same old, same old. I think I will go far away for a while on Friday and try to forget about this.
Ever since I lost my job, I am not around other people and it bugs me because I hate living in this town and I had been finding myself wanting to move away. Of course, I can't because of this job problem.
The point is, I really am happy I am involved with the Ren Faire, I'm hoping I can meet people who create and to form sincere friendships with them. Everyone knows I don't want friendship for superficial reasons...I'm not that kind of person. (Of course, I'm also upset that I've tried to offer my performing to some people online who are in the metropolitan area who make good videos, but they never answered back. Where am I to find these things and NOT have to go to the filthy underbelly that is craigslist?)
That does bring me to the fact I feel like I'm doing these things alone. I don't know how to edit videos, so that's why it's all single camera in one take with me. As well as the fact I don't have anyone to do these with. So really, I AM doing it alone.
I need to stop being shy...it might be one of the biggest reasons I'm not getting what I want out of life. Still, what am I going to in this downtime? It's just same old, same old. I think I will go far away for a while on Friday and try to forget about this.