I'm pleased that I finally went and made that video today...
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I just wanted to be over all that hurt by actually DOING it. I really don't want to wait around for someone to give me a chance when I can just do it myself.
Right now, I've gotten down to 183 lb. which is better than I expected at this point. I'm just 46 lb. away from my goal now.
Mood swings...not quite over them now, but at least under control.