"my heart is just so hurt."
damn theres only so much i can take. . . my heart has been broken so many times whit this sorry asz no good nigga. i stay stressin him like a fukkin idiot, yesterday i was at my baby daddyz house he wasnt there it was me & his mom cuz he lied 2 his mom and said he was goin 2 look 4 jobz when in reality he went 2 sum chickz house. so i was lookin at the caller id & i saw that this girl called the house fone when he told me he dont talk 2 her anymore. of course he's lyin he's a complusive lier and hes fukkin bi-polar. so i got fukkin mad when i saw that shit, so i called the little dick suckin bitch up., so this is what the girl tells me... she's been wit him for 2months so im guessin they got 2gether right when i had the baby and they've been havin sex 4 2 months , that he told her he has no son & he doesn't kno who i am that i'm his homeboys homegirl. and she asks all his homeboys about me and the kid and they deny everything. and they was on the fone last nite until 4 am he called her right when i left his crib at 12 3o am. and look at this shit the girl is only 15. 15 !@!!!!!!!!!! wtf dawg, im fukkin 19 gonna be 20 in 7months & shit, that pussy ass hoe aint got shit on me, the reason he talks 2 this toddler hoes is becuz he has nuttin 2 offer them no car, money , or job. and a real woman wants all of the above. so i left the house & came bak and he was there and i told him that shit and all he could do is laugh, now what kinda shit is that. tellin me he dunno what im talkin about. i fukkin hate when im mad and he laughs at me that shit makes me wanna fukkin go crazy. . . i cant believe this shit, im so hurt dawg, its like i wanna run awway & never come bak but u cant run away from ur problemz . so im stayyin at my homegirls crib 4 now cuz i cant be around that area,. im such a good person & i always get shitted on , wtf is that ., juz my luck. its all good cuz what goes around comes around 2 can play at this game boo., fuck him & his sorry ass homeboys . how dare him say that he dont have no kid, oh no god is gonna punish this nigga. ;D the only thing rite now that makes me happy is lookin at my son . hes my world. and i thank god 4 him but also feel sorry that his dad is a no good piece of shit. i fukkin hate him ...i wish 1 day he could feel all the pain that he has put me thru. . . fuk da world. holla at cha girl <333