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I need a new tactic. Going through it all like that wasn't working. I was getting too frustrated. I still am frustrated, but now I've put a movie on to help me focus, a little like using Twilight but with the movie I'm watching it all the time. I'll keep reading when the movie finishes.
I don't know if I can keep doing this. I can't do it today anyway. I don't know how many times I've gone over the ins and outs of what happened in 2007, but all I want to do is just forget it all happened and try to go on. That's what I've been doing, but obviously it's not working. I just don't even want to think about it. I know what happened. I know what they were thinking. I know what I did, and what they did, and thinking it over doesn't change that fact.
So that's it. I'm just not going to think about it anymore. It's over. I'm going to pretend like it never happened and just stop talking about it. It's just going to be some sort of horrible thing I made up as an excuse to feel like shit. If I ever have to think about it, I'm just going to imagine it happened to someone else. The part of me that I don't want to be anymore.
And that is all. Now I'm going to enjoy the rest of my movie and try to improve my mood before Mark finishes and I have to go grocery shopping.