thoughts
I had that "I kissed a girl" song in my head all day today. It was funny because I bothered myself to listen to it the other day online, and I didn't really like it, but since then I've heard it at least once a day on the radio. It's not that bad, I guess I just don't like it because I really do kiss girls and for me it's not a fad. It's not a bad song, it's pretty catchy. Anyway, Andie rocked up to work at 6am this morning and we were talking about it because she had it stuck in her head. Then Shell, Andie and I were talking about it again, and so we were all talking about it and singing it and getting it stuck in our heads. And then the liquor 2IC turned up as well as Shell's boyfriend (the 2IC kid wasn't supposed to be working) and then we were all talking about it and we all had it stuck in our heads. We were singing it all day to ourselves. Then after a few hours I got it stuck back in my head again, and was talking with Andie and got it stuck in Andie's boyfriend's mother's head (because we're all one big happy check out family).
It's a funny thing, because I'm sure that no one that I work with pays any attention to my sexuality at all. My Facebook has "women" as my "interested in" and "in an open relationship" as my "relationship status" but I don't think anyone has noticed. It's also funny because I know Andie has kissed a girl and she didn't like it. I found that out when we played "never have I ever" at Hannah's birthday ages ago. It's something that everyone does isn't it; kissing a girl. I never had really, and I was into girls. I've never had a fumbled friend pash or a drunken dance floor kiss caused by being too drunk and taken away by the music and dancing. I've had kisses, but they've been meaningful kisses, often followed by sex. Oh and playing spin the bottle with friends at Ally's 18th where I kissed Ally, Charlotte, Emily and Amy, but does that count? It wasn't a pash, just a peck really. I hate it that girls kissing girls seems to be something that is cool now. I hate it how it's cool to do it if you're straight/drunk/mucking around but then it's not cool to do it if you're gay/bisexual/serious. I hate that stereotype. I felt weird talking about this song because I do kiss girls seriously. I'm not of the "I kissed a girl just to try it" mode of thought. I do it because I want to and I like the girl I'm kissing. Maybe Andie and everyone hasn't taken notice of that fact, although seeing as I've never kissed a girl in public where they are, and they don't pay much attention to Facebook, they probably don't know.
Today was a random day at work. After not being able to sleep I thought it would be horrible but it was actually pretty good. I like opening with Andie because I can talk to her. I don't like opening with Joe much because he's not so cool at work. I don't like opening with anyone else really. I also had Shell in express with me today, because the other lady had the day off (she's old and annoying, and needs to be in express because she's old and annoying). I was tired all day, but we all had fun chatting. I think that's what makes or breaks the days at work; who you're on with. I have the best times talking to the ones I'm friendly with, and today with Shell and Andie was pretty good. It was such a random day, singing "I kissed a girl" all day and hearing Miranda complain about her boyleg undies creeping up and how she usually wears g-strings every day. There wasn't even any bad customers, except for the guy who comes in periodically to complain because he's not recieving his catalogues. He's complained three times, all to me, although I say he's only complained to me twice because the first time he went off and upset me because I couldn't get someone to talk to him. I just pretend that wasn't me. The first time he complained someone contacted him, and I've written it on the form that we send away. I just wish someone would bloody fix his catalogues and deliver them to him because I'm sick of having him come and complain to me! There's nothing I can do about it. He wanted the name and number of the people who distributed the catalogues, but I can't give that out. He'll probably be in again in another month or so complaining again. He was surprised I recognised him, but even though I probably see about a thousand people a day, I'm pretty good with remembering regulars. There's a handful of people that I could tell you exactly what they smoke and when they buy them.
After my entry last night I decided I want to do some hardcore money saving. I don't know how I'm going to work it, but I know that I owe Mark $700 for my camera when my tax gets back, and I still owe Mum around $700 for the fridge. That money came out of my account, but she took it out and I'm paying it back so that I still have that money. It's like a personal layby. Today in my lunch break I bought a mug and a jar of peanut butter. I feel odd eating deep fried fish and chips at 10am, so I thought I'd have peanut butter on toast every morning and eat healthier and save money at the same time. Now I just have to remember to take bread to toast! And I have to remember to buy the 680g bread not the 800g because I had that one today and it was too big for the little work toaster.
On the subject of money; things I need/want to buy are: a birthday present for Jayden, an OpenDiary subscription, a LiveJournal subscription (maybe), a new silver chain, polaroid film and wood to make a cool awesome bookshelf (which I will post photos of when I make). And then after all these I'm doing some hardcore saving. At least I'll try to. Our internet bill is due next week, and I'm sure I'll have a phonebill sometimes soon. A month is never long enough to save money, and at the moment the days are going so fast I have no idea where I'm up to. But now, now I'll take charge. I really think I need to. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, and things feel like they're going by so fast I just need to make things stop just for two seconds so that I can think. I doubt it'll happen though, so I need to think on the go.
It's so cold at the moment. I thought winter was nearly supposed to be over but I think it's gotten colder over the last week or so. It's been snowing again around the place, and it's getting into the negatives at night. We hardly have any heating, but the oven warms the house up so quick. I just pile the clothes on. Mum's house is really freezing. I was complaining so much when I was there yesterday. Mum says I just lost touch because I don't live there anymore, but I swear it's colder there. I'm sick of having to wear three shirts. Today I wore an old jumper as an under sweater, and then my work shirt, and then my vest, and then my work jacket, and then another jacket on top as well as a scarf just for the walk at 5:30am. I seriously just want to curl up in bed and hibernate until the chill goes away and it's summer again. Or at least spring. I just want nice hot sunny days and comfortably warm nights. I don't want any of this minus five to three degrees days. They suck. I don't want to rug up!
I haven't heard from Precious since Saturday night, but I wouldn't hear from her anyway. That's just how things are, and I'm not really minding. I know I'll see her on Friday, and hopefully she's heaps interested in me so I'll see her a lot on the weekend or some times soon. That's me just hoping though. This is different. I actually think I don't like her anymore than a friend, I'm just insanely attracted to her and I badly want to jump her. I don't really want to date her, I just want to have sex with her. I guess it's your typical perfect hook up.