not shaping out to be a good day
Today is a bad day. Ok well it's just not a good day. It could get heaps better, and I've only been awake for like an hour and a half.
I have wicked horrible period pain, which I'm sure no one really wants to hear about. I do this to myself you know, before I went on the pill I never had pain ever. Now I'm on the pill I skip periods and only get one about every three months, and I get pain. I get too scared to have a period because I know how much they hurt, so I put them off and then they hurt worse. But now, after four years, I've gotten into a routine where I have one every three months. And it's not so bad, I only get pain for the first day or so, but it's still pretty unbearable at the moment. I do have painkillers, but the only ones that work are ones that are targeted at period pain, and I have none of those at the moment.
I'm also tired because I wanted to go back to sleep this morning, and then I missed the opportunity to get out of bed when I should have because I was too lazy, so I wanted to go back to sleep but couldn't. I've had a shower and breakfast, and I just got out of my dressing gown and into some clothes so I'm hoping today will be alright.
It's also not a very nice looking day outside. It rained last night, and now it's just overcast and windy. It's probably cold too but it's not so bad in here.
I really, badly need to look at my uni disc I just realised. I read Ally's LJ last night which said she starts back today, so that means I would obviously start back soon too, and I've done nothing. It's not so bad though because I don't have any textbooks to read or anything. All I have to do is put the disc in and look at it. I hope it's not too involved, although this semester I really should have all the time in the world. I decided that that was what I was going to do today.
I also just had this overwhelming realisation that I really need to get my shit together. This place is a fucking mess. My life feels like a mess. I'm all over the place and I can't ever just get one thing done. I'm sick of procrastinating, and even though now I have a reason (my consuming period pain) I still know that even when that's gone I won't do anything. If there's a time for getting my shit together and starting to do things now is it, but at the moment I'm chatting to Drena and I don't want to get off the computer. But I think I will get off the blog sites, just for now.
I have wicked horrible period pain, which I'm sure no one really wants to hear about. I do this to myself you know, before I went on the pill I never had pain ever. Now I'm on the pill I skip periods and only get one about every three months, and I get pain. I get too scared to have a period because I know how much they hurt, so I put them off and then they hurt worse. But now, after four years, I've gotten into a routine where I have one every three months. And it's not so bad, I only get pain for the first day or so, but it's still pretty unbearable at the moment. I do have painkillers, but the only ones that work are ones that are targeted at period pain, and I have none of those at the moment.
I'm also tired because I wanted to go back to sleep this morning, and then I missed the opportunity to get out of bed when I should have because I was too lazy, so I wanted to go back to sleep but couldn't. I've had a shower and breakfast, and I just got out of my dressing gown and into some clothes so I'm hoping today will be alright.
It's also not a very nice looking day outside. It rained last night, and now it's just overcast and windy. It's probably cold too but it's not so bad in here.
I really, badly need to look at my uni disc I just realised. I read Ally's LJ last night which said she starts back today, so that means I would obviously start back soon too, and I've done nothing. It's not so bad though because I don't have any textbooks to read or anything. All I have to do is put the disc in and look at it. I hope it's not too involved, although this semester I really should have all the time in the world. I decided that that was what I was going to do today.
I also just had this overwhelming realisation that I really need to get my shit together. This place is a fucking mess. My life feels like a mess. I'm all over the place and I can't ever just get one thing done. I'm sick of procrastinating, and even though now I have a reason (my consuming period pain) I still know that even when that's gone I won't do anything. If there's a time for getting my shit together and starting to do things now is it, but at the moment I'm chatting to Drena and I don't want to get off the computer. But I think I will get off the blog sites, just for now.