You are the roots that sleep beneath my feet and hold the earth in place
I really do love Highstown High school. I appreciate everything everyone says to me so much, coming from last year where to only people I talked to were teachers. Mel always has something really nice to say that just makes my day. And Steve always makes a conscious effort to say hello. Scott and Marc sang me some Bon Jovi at lunch, and I smiled so much my face started to hurt. I love being able to see Sammie, Sam, Heather, Jason, Josh and Kerry during school; they mah main niggaz. Kerry's party is on friday, I guess I'm pretty excited. I'm just glad to be able to have an opportunity to show her I looooovvvee her. I miss Matt, but I don't mind. You see, it's a new kind of miss now. I don't miss him to where it makes me sad or lonely, I just think it would be kinda nice if he was here. Before I really wasn't sure how I was going to be able to be happy as I was when he was around, but thanks to a few get-togethers and some amazing friends, I realized that I'm much happier without him. I think what I hated most about it was that I just looked unmistakably weak. I don't like when people make me look stupid. He comes home in 5, well technically 4 days, and I'm a little bit nervous. We'll see what happens. I wish my friends didn't hold so much back from me. I feel like they don't think they can tell me everything, and they can; they really can tell me anything in the whole entire world and I wouldn't judge them or tell anyone. I don't think people realize how many things I keep to myself, and that's a good thing. I'd rather not look weak, or complicated, or for that matter, like a train wreck waiting to happen. I like being simple, but that doesn't mean I'm not willing to take every single one of their problems onto my shoulders, because I would without thinking twice.
I went to Bonzai with my family for my dad's birthday, and it was a huge relief after the incident on sunday night. Everyone looked to incredibly happy. I got to see Eric for the first time since before Teddy died. Jill was there too, I like her alot; She's good for him. Keith looked really happy to be there, but I don't know whether that was him being happy, or just laughing at the cook's broken english. SANK YOU VEDDY MUCH! I really love my family, and I'm extremely lucky.
When the fuck are the Thursday tickets coming?! Jesus titty-fucking christ. haha I must sound so ignorant right about now. I hope Matt goes, but I'd much rather go with Jason and Marc, and I have to be sure Matt's not going before they tell me for sure if they're coming or not. I love those boys, beyond what I could even begin to describe here.
PS. I scored a new ninja bracelet =)
I went to Bonzai with my family for my dad's birthday, and it was a huge relief after the incident on sunday night. Everyone looked to incredibly happy. I got to see Eric for the first time since before Teddy died. Jill was there too, I like her alot; She's good for him. Keith looked really happy to be there, but I don't know whether that was him being happy, or just laughing at the cook's broken english. SANK YOU VEDDY MUCH! I really love my family, and I'm extremely lucky.
When the fuck are the Thursday tickets coming?! Jesus titty-fucking christ. haha I must sound so ignorant right about now. I hope Matt goes, but I'd much rather go with Jason and Marc, and I have to be sure Matt's not going before they tell me for sure if they're coming or not. I love those boys, beyond what I could even begin to describe here.
PS. I scored a new ninja bracelet =)