レベルUP！やった！
Hello thar! This is little fish signing in.
Just wanted to share a little life update and testimony.
But in short, I’ve been absent because… I’ve realized that human connections are great. While its lovely and cosy to be able to post out into the void, get things off my chest and just have nothing argue back at you..
It’s also nice to share life things with people. Who might … not be able to change anything in your situation but could grouse along with you and get indignant (or better yet pray with you). Or might have opinions and ideas on how to improve thinga. Or might smack you if you do something stupid….
(On a random note, it behooves me that my thesis project was about behavioural feedback but I never thought about the implications or application in real life…)
So an update from last episode of TLDR…
Debs was quite content with the present situation, life things pretty stable, job going good. Adulting is happening! So I should be grateful and stop complaining about the small things…
Then like the main character at the start of RPG that waltzes up to the top of a hill and looks down only to realize… ohno. It’s only just starting. It’s not green pastures and blue skies that lie ahead but a myriad of obstacles and challenges….
Our (kindly) old CEO retired and his replacement is militant and inflicting godzilla-like fear and havoc in the organization. My boss resigned.
!!! He seemed so enmashed with the system, I thought he was going to be here forever! -devastated-
Thus, my days as well protected small potato were coming to an end. Enter interim boss aka the dragon lady from our parent company
It seems like she was here to fill the gap and there was some contention with boss on his management style. Yet it didn’t seem like she was totally inline with new CEO.
What was clear was that her expectations of my team were different… and lofty. Her instructions, were sparse. This resulted in sometimes shocking and sudden explosions.
(Background terror: we are currently being merged back into the parent group so it feels like they’ve got their tentacles digging into every facet of our business. Our our HR systems are being changed. They’re pretty half baked and obviously, the differences in our business was never taken into consideration)
TESTIMONY
There’s been alot of tension since New CEO arrived, but my team has been pretty well protected.
I have to say, that in all my working years… my soon to be ex-boss probably is the best embodiment of what I think a good manager should be. Not just a physical meat shield or delegator of tasks, but one that provides stewardship. Hetakes the effort to understands us and tries to work out work related issues together. He also stated that it was his job to protect and shield the team against what he felt was “turbulence” or external problems that might effect the team
;__; Such a beautiful picture. But certainly not a perfect one. Protecting the team from turbulences meant that he bore the brunt of the criticism from management - remember that new CEO? Right about this time he started stomping about like an enraged godzilla and dolling out complaints willy nilly and seemed intent on weeding out the old management.
Much tension was in the air. But we were none the wiser on the details. Management it seems was unhappy with us, but we didn’t know why.
A new project was … thrust upon me. Debs to help with Data dashboarding … across departments. This sounds like a new project that would take up alot of time, and take me away from my core job of L&D. I’m not sure if I can deliver, since I must understand the data to make the dashboard. How will I help other departments? But dashboarding and data is an area I would like to develop, to pivot away from just learning - so okay. I think it’s a good opportunity for me, daunting as it may be.
I just felt that … something could have been done about the process. What started as a tentative question on my interest (where I voiced my concerns) then became my new project project… and part of my KPI, without my explicit consent.
//Tldr; skip above and start here for the TESTIMONY! … But you’ve probably read the above.//
I’m doing my bible readings according to the plan and everyday I find it really amazing. I think its such a base revelation but… how can something written so long ago and in a different context STILL be so relevant!?
Everyday, I find myself journeying together. i look forward to my daily tidbit of advice and encouragement for the day that always is so timely for my situation :)
Given the current instability at work, I find myself digging down deep to ask for some HALPP! Asking for His divine wisdom, for mercy for favour in this situation… because what can I do ? ;__; This is kind of a “I don’t know what I don’t know” kind of situation. So all I can do is give it back God.
I thank You for all that you have provided for me, and all the opportunities you have provided :) But also, surely You placed me here in the marketplace for a reason. So yahweh, I pray for your continued providence and guidance. I pray for Your mercy to be upon me, my bosses and the management. I pray for your favour to be upon me from the bosses and management.
… and it seems like its working. I don’t think anyone has voiced it out (except that one time I complained about it with non-office friends during a lunch… how likely was it that they would have heard me?) but maybe with a better understanding of us, interim boss’s instructions are now more clear. Compared to the starting point where she was just screaming bloody murder about everything and complaining that we were underperforming and not taking ownership. But lady, how do we perform without knowing the expectations?
So okay, this is a minor miracle and a vast improvement … that seems to have mysteriously materialized. Also, it’s not perfect. Her management style is quite different and more micro. We have alot more meetings. But I’ll accept it so long as it gets the work done. Maybe setting things “right” requires closer management? If more regular updates means that targets and expectations can be more rational, that’s good too.
It has its merits as well. I’m still going to be presenting the dashboard in meetings (it seems) but building the dashboard together bit by bit means that I will actually understand the data. It won’t be a death march to management meeting.
In short, things are looking up. Debs just doing what Debs does, but I heard that the management is pleased? Things are moving and changing… God is moving and changing things, and Debs just doing~
Wheeh. That was a long update. Anyway, the journey moves onwards~~
… NO THE END.