(no subject)
Being a mom is hard work. I feel pretty inadequate sometimes. I don't know if I'm doing enough or doing it right or whatever. Sometimes I'm tired and I rely on someone to take a feeding or something and I feel guilty for that. I'm warring with some emotions that are pretty distressing but I know it'll pass and I'm just trying to get used to everything.
Or something.
Work is starting to stress me out even though I'm not even back yet! I really don't want to go back, man. I want to stay at home, with Amelia, and not worry about work, but it's life. Amelia needs food and insurance. I just need to suck it up. At least for the rest of the year. Then if mom and dad were serious, I'll take a few months off or get a crappy part time job. I dunno! I do know that I want to go back to school. I had to re register. I can take an online class to ease back in and then when I have everything settled, I can physically go back to school.
I miss being pregnant. But nothing compares to what I have now.
Or something.
Work is starting to stress me out even though I'm not even back yet! I really don't want to go back, man. I want to stay at home, with Amelia, and not worry about work, but it's life. Amelia needs food and insurance. I just need to suck it up. At least for the rest of the year. Then if mom and dad were serious, I'll take a few months off or get a crappy part time job. I dunno! I do know that I want to go back to school. I had to re register. I can take an online class to ease back in and then when I have everything settled, I can physically go back to school.
I miss being pregnant. But nothing compares to what I have now.