... i need to sleep. jesus.
i just reread that small portion of the facebook string. apparently over winter break, we wrote 156 messages total. damn. haha.
so i just babbled for a long time and wrote about 5 paragraphs. which i'm privating. i think it was me more trying to defend being psycho and dating scott and considering going back to him than anything. thank god i avoided that one. but anyways.
rereading that note, i still feel that same warmth that i did that day. the words he wrote then i can see on a day-to-day basis, hear in his voice, read in his words. i know how much he genuinely cares for me. and i'm glad we are on the same page about things. it's a good feeling. i think from now on if i need self-assurance about anything i'm just going to read that. it might have been from before we were together, but it still says so much.
so i just babbled for a long time and wrote about 5 paragraphs. which i'm privating. i think it was me more trying to defend being psycho and dating scott and considering going back to him than anything. thank god i avoided that one. but anyways.
rereading that note, i still feel that same warmth that i did that day. the words he wrote then i can see on a day-to-day basis, hear in his voice, read in his words. i know how much he genuinely cares for me. and i'm glad we are on the same page about things. it's a good feeling. i think from now on if i need self-assurance about anything i'm just going to read that. it might have been from before we were together, but it still says so much.