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so writing all that stuff last weekend seriously helped to clear my head. i've been acting like a normal person since.
work has been crazy busy. being the intern, i have to fix everyone's retarded mistakes. and somehow, they make SO many of them. i mean jesus. it's annoying. especially when the head guys don't agree on revisions and i'm redoing things over and over and over. blah. oh well.
so i'm pmsing again. charles sent me this string of really sweet emails all day today, and has just been amazing in general, and today i got all teary-eyed thinking of him giving me a real hug when he said "i wish i could be there to give you a real hug" etc. i'm hoping it's pms. but i really do miss him. and again, being away from him has made me realize just how much i like him. i am still a very independent person in my mind (unlike when i have just gotten sucked in in the past) but i still feel like a tiny part of me is missing? maybe it's because i feel we click so well. who knows. i feel really lucky though. and i know we are going to be just fine through the summer. 41 days and counting till i get to see him... or about 6 weeks. haha. i am going to do a weekly countdown with him. and a daily one in my head every few days. because seeing a large number skip down is exciting, haha. i have thought a few times about when i first see him. i hope i get scooped up in his arms and get a huge kiss as soon as he sees me. i will not care that i am in a public airport. haha. i'm really excited about it, even if i have to wait. it's going to be amazing to be back together with him. and again, i feel so damn lucky to have him. this is a good thing :-)
today i drove up to gilbert... i'm here at my aunt/uncles. i got to see my mom, dad, and brother together. my dad flew in to atlanta and came up with my mom/bro which is exciting. i miss having the family together. it was strange though... my dad was talking about how me growing up is becoming a lot more real for him. i drove here seperately from a random place he's never seen to meet them. we've never driven up here apart before. it's all strange, and hitting my parents kinda fast i think. and me moving out in august is strange for them too. but it's good. i'm glad they are letting go.
dahahaha. my brother just called and goes "ummmmmmm i'm outside still." my uncle locked up the entire house and turned on the alarm system around 10:30. oops. he saw my tattoo for the first time today. i told him not to tell any family because i don't want disowned or written out of wills. haha.
ok i think i'm going to pass out. i'm sleepy from getting up at 7:30, working 8 hours, and then driving 2.5 hours to get to gilbert. blah.
if only i could curl up in his arms to sleep... that is what i'm looking forward to the most. is when i can do that again. i sleep so much better with him, it's strange. even in that stupid twin bed. heh.
work has been crazy busy. being the intern, i have to fix everyone's retarded mistakes. and somehow, they make SO many of them. i mean jesus. it's annoying. especially when the head guys don't agree on revisions and i'm redoing things over and over and over. blah. oh well.
so i'm pmsing again. charles sent me this string of really sweet emails all day today, and has just been amazing in general, and today i got all teary-eyed thinking of him giving me a real hug when he said "i wish i could be there to give you a real hug" etc. i'm hoping it's pms. but i really do miss him. and again, being away from him has made me realize just how much i like him. i am still a very independent person in my mind (unlike when i have just gotten sucked in in the past) but i still feel like a tiny part of me is missing? maybe it's because i feel we click so well. who knows. i feel really lucky though. and i know we are going to be just fine through the summer. 41 days and counting till i get to see him... or about 6 weeks. haha. i am going to do a weekly countdown with him. and a daily one in my head every few days. because seeing a large number skip down is exciting, haha. i have thought a few times about when i first see him. i hope i get scooped up in his arms and get a huge kiss as soon as he sees me. i will not care that i am in a public airport. haha. i'm really excited about it, even if i have to wait. it's going to be amazing to be back together with him. and again, i feel so damn lucky to have him. this is a good thing :-)
today i drove up to gilbert... i'm here at my aunt/uncles. i got to see my mom, dad, and brother together. my dad flew in to atlanta and came up with my mom/bro which is exciting. i miss having the family together. it was strange though... my dad was talking about how me growing up is becoming a lot more real for him. i drove here seperately from a random place he's never seen to meet them. we've never driven up here apart before. it's all strange, and hitting my parents kinda fast i think. and me moving out in august is strange for them too. but it's good. i'm glad they are letting go.
dahahaha. my brother just called and goes "ummmmmmm i'm outside still." my uncle locked up the entire house and turned on the alarm system around 10:30. oops. he saw my tattoo for the first time today. i told him not to tell any family because i don't want disowned or written out of wills. haha.
ok i think i'm going to pass out. i'm sleepy from getting up at 7:30, working 8 hours, and then driving 2.5 hours to get to gilbert. blah.
if only i could curl up in his arms to sleep... that is what i'm looking forward to the most. is when i can do that again. i sleep so much better with him, it's strange. even in that stupid twin bed. heh.