orientation and explanations.
this past monday and tuesday i attended orientation. As most of you know I don't like being out of my comfort zone and when i first meet someone I'm more likely to watch than to interact,so I went into with an optimistic spirit and and out- going mind. I failed. I guess the weekend I decided to go was the group of long life BFFS and bro hoes. I really tried to make friends in my group. it didn't work and i ended up leaving early with my parents because i was so upset.
This lead to me having a little breakdown and me finally realizing how alone I'm going to be when I get down to memphis. Of course I know I'm going to be okay and will make a group of amazing friends because I will not depend on charles to be my only friend.
I'm so afraid/excited and have been purposefully distancing myself from people because I can't count on you all to be there when I'm 3 hours away. I know I shouldn't do this I just think that by me doing this it will be a whole lot easier to say good-bye becasue it's only 7 weeks away.
In saying this I"m going to memphis on sunday until tuesday to get closer to some girls so I'll have some friends when I get down there.
I'm then going to the beach for a week. BUT when I get back from the beach and everyone else gets back from Hillmont I'll stop being a recluse for the last couple of weeks I have with you all.
i'm sorry &
I love you.
This lead to me having a little breakdown and me finally realizing how alone I'm going to be when I get down to memphis. Of course I know I'm going to be okay and will make a group of amazing friends because I will not depend on charles to be my only friend.
I'm so afraid/excited and have been purposefully distancing myself from people because I can't count on you all to be there when I'm 3 hours away. I know I shouldn't do this I just think that by me doing this it will be a whole lot easier to say good-bye becasue it's only 7 weeks away.
In saying this I"m going to memphis on sunday until tuesday to get closer to some girls so I'll have some friends when I get down there.
I'm then going to the beach for a week. BUT when I get back from the beach and everyone else gets back from Hillmont I'll stop being a recluse for the last couple of weeks I have with you all.
i'm sorry &
I love you.