bad week.
my room is no longer my room. there is new furniture and the pictures of my friends are gone.
It is so weird to me that one little day of packing can make me feel ignored & not wanted in my home.
I know that in 20 days my house will be empty & when I come home I will feel like a stranger. It didn't hit me until today that I will not wake up to a 30 pound cat looking and purring at me but to a new town where I'm alone. I know oreo is an animal but I just can't help but wonder what he'll be thinking when I'm not here for 4 months & he is with one less person to adore him.
On top of this feeling I get to deal with the love of my life going on tour across the country where there will be new girls for him to admire(You know the cute/skinny/perfect girls that come to the shows with their cute hair & even cuter outfit.)UGHH.The thought of him cheating on me kills me. I feel so selfish because this is his dream and I feel like I can't be 100% happy for him.
BUT,there is a chance that amden might be coming here on the 1st for a show....that could be good.
OH and i get to be alone on my birthday for the 2nd year in a row! AWESOME!
I need to stop.
It is so weird to me that one little day of packing can make me feel ignored & not wanted in my home.
I know that in 20 days my house will be empty & when I come home I will feel like a stranger. It didn't hit me until today that I will not wake up to a 30 pound cat looking and purring at me but to a new town where I'm alone. I know oreo is an animal but I just can't help but wonder what he'll be thinking when I'm not here for 4 months & he is with one less person to adore him.
On top of this feeling I get to deal with the love of my life going on tour across the country where there will be new girls for him to admire(You know the cute/skinny/perfect girls that come to the shows with their cute hair & even cuter outfit.)UGHH.The thought of him cheating on me kills me. I feel so selfish because this is his dream and I feel like I can't be 100% happy for him.
BUT,there is a chance that amden might be coming here on the 1st for a show....that could be good.
OH and i get to be alone on my birthday for the 2nd year in a row! AWESOME!
I need to stop.