I'm oh so Regretful.

[l_ve]

That last entry was insanity. We all know how one can get when angry and resentful.. but I'm mainly sad and I just responded back to Erica. Explaining that I don't always mean all that. Some of it's true but it's mainly just angry words from a very sad, disturbed person. I'm scared. I'm sad. I'm surrounded by love and feeling worthless and lonely. I'm losing my mind. I'm hurting so bad on the inside..all day..everyday..at this point I don't think that will ever end. And I cry a lot of days after school because I know this. And I know that the past is the past and it's NEVER coming back. The past two or three years of my life.. those people.. that love.. those good times.. are gone. And are never to return..

That's what I regret the most. Wasting those perfect moments with those perfect people by being the way I was...sad and feeling alone.

I'm wasting my life away with these feelings. one perfectly disastrous moment at a time.

xwastefulx